Thursday, November 18, 2004
juz this tuesdae... 16 nov 2004... i learnt a very gd lesson on, who i can call frens for a lifetime... ppl say... making frens in NS is the best n longest time where u eat slp n hang ard with... but to me... I DONT AGREE... frens that betrays trust and nv go with their words are fren who fucking can get outta my life... they chose to disregard this frenship... FINE... i DOnt NEED tHEM to be part of my life... these frens are juz a DUST in my life that I PAY them CASH to LEarn a lessoN FROM... JUZ TAKE it as a DONATIOn to CHARITY MAN... i can AFFORD THIS SMALL PRIcE TO PAY... if they want it to be this way... SO BE IT... I'm FINE WITH IT...
NOW... making frens i will be very careful as in i dun wish this things happen to me again... i dun feel wrong of building a wall around me... at least i can protect myself from fuck up frens out of this world... u noe... this world ppl intend to take advantage of u when u hav price value... and when u dun... they fucking kick u aside and let u die... juz how mani of us hav gd frens in this lifetime... for me... NONE... each of them come and go... NONE VALUE LONG enuff for me to trust them... i dunno why... but shits happens... what i noe is that thru out this 2yrs in army... i made gd frens, normal frens and a few fuck up frens... they try take advantage of u... and i m so kind enuff to fall into the fucking trap... and imagine i can trust them so much and hav faith in them... yet they take this frenship and destory it hurting my trust for them... damn fucking shit man... for me... i dun need them to survive in this world... so i m fine without them since they are such an arsehole to me now... i chose to give them up then... but some frens who dun reali hang out with began to be a gd fren of mine... maybe we dun hang out so often but then i noe that they r reali nice ppl outside juz that our lifestyle doesnt click together but i noe i can trust them MORE than those who ke siao be nice to u and backstab u at the fucking back of u... these ppl are intend u need to watch them... they r ppl surrounding u watching ur moves... dun let the devil win and destory u... Trust the Lord... even if u let them win victory but dun get angry with them... as when u r not angry and u learn from mistake... u noe u won victory for Christ... even if is hard to take but... Didnt God suffer more worst than what u go thru??? YAH... SO I UNDERSTOOD this trial i going thru... lesson learn but well learn...
at least i noe it earli rather than when next time they want to do business with me... i lose out even MORE rite??? YAH!!! 70 BUCkS is nothing to Christ... he will PUll ME THRU... even if that arsehole want to return me the money... i will TAke back coz is my money in the first place... BUT the trust i hav for him is GONE... NO MORE... i also noe i wun take back the money liao... i juz hav to be forgiving...
NELVIN... U HAV TO FORGIVE... AND FORGET THAT HE IS UR FREN NO MORE... NO MORE... WHO EVER BETRAY ME IS NO LONGER A FREN TO ME...
Nelvin Blogged @ 11:50 PM
