-God & 5Cs, 1Ds and 2Ms-

what does that means? well... first is of coz, to get right and walk towards God's plan, direction and will la... and of coz God is my first and only first that i should take account for... anything goes with HIM being first in life...

then next, will be my pursue of 5Cs, 1Ds and 2Ms... what are they? 5Cs everyone knows la, Cash, Card, Condo, Car and Career... hahaha... i m working hard for my Career le, but not much cash, not much card, and dont even have a condo... so those have to work harder... and as for a car... yar... i owned 3/4 of it... HAHAHA...

ok next, what is 1Ds... DEgree of coz... and i m working on it too... another 14mths!!! i will grad liao... oh man... 14mths of hard work! keke... and as for 2Ms... hard to guess right? it is MARRIAGE, and MASTER DEGREE la... oh, of coz i aim MARRIAGE ahead of master la... master can go study with wifey mah... hahaa... so first must pursue someone of the image... but who? still looking ard...

Any girls that match my (GODLY, SILLY & LOVELY) in my eyes... i sure wont let it go... hahaa... i think... if i m still as lazy of even asking a gal out... then, there's goes my chances anyway... hahahaha... busy mah... busy slacking at home... no choice...

ok... will continue to do my scanning... whenever i m more free... keke...

-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-

(so far, she's still the best la... just that, i also dunno...)

-another day when i sux in parking a car-

i hit my backside of the car once again! when PARKING! agAIN! damn sian la, everytime hit when parking, i dunno what i doing sia, either i m slping, or i m too careless liao... i dunno, i just very sian.!!!

i hit my 8k TIME target already, just that i need 900 more to hit overall target... so must JIAYOU TML!... keke... need more so that i can earn a living... haha... not forgetting that, i need alot of rest, and slp... Skiped class today again... but i went for g12... long time nv go, then heard and understand some stuff happening in church... oh well... God bless them man...

ah!!! sometimes i just hate myself for doing things that i shldnt be doing... and hate myself for not doing things that i shld do! sighz...

i need lots of prayers, and supports!!!

oh well...

-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-

(overcome! looking forward to friday... =D)

-feel like puking day-

m i expecting? then how come i feel like puking the whole day after drinking a cup of milk tea? too much milk issit... hahha... well i still got mood to joke... damn... skip class, leave for home earli... just dun hav the strenght and mood to continue sales job... m i giving up so soon? i hope not... i just pure sick... i guess...

i need to press on, i need to fight for the things that is just ahead of me... but how long more can i fight alone? i need to fight side by side with God... he's my strenght and comforter...

oh god!!!

heal me from my tireness... and my puking feeling... it's irriating!

-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-

(show me some love)

-seeing the world today brings out some light-

today, i suddenly go back to olden days, going to macdonald and do projects! hahaha, so funny... a batch a school students etc... a memory of the olden days where i was just a student...

after that, went home and watch a japanese drama, very meaningful, about these bunch of orphans story... quite sad, but very yah... i kinda like that drama, maybe i could go and find the whole series... keke...

then at night, i went to amk and eat as well as watch the show L save the world... thou the movie doesnt look like the part 1 and 2... but overall it's quite nice too, and the japanese young girl is CUTE! lol... but very young la, i think the most is only 14yrs old... haha... but the joker L, his ways of typing the keyboard and eating style, damn idiotic lo... haha... but overall the ending is not bad... in suspend lo... keke...

then we went prata find adel, and torres scored hat-trick! haha... oh well, more gossips and bitching during the prata, yah... but lifes goes on la. and suddenly, many things came across my mind as i drive home...

the differences of 2 different world, the mismatch of personalities, the overall package is so different!... but the thought of fighting for the best... motivates me to even wait and work harder... it's a tough battle ahead, but if i can overcome all odds, and overcome my own fear... i think nothing can stop God in doing a work in my life... a road to remember down the years... reflecting my walk in the 20s... and how i process and grow in the 10years of my 20s... i finished 24years road... and slowly attaining things that i thought is impossible... but now, everything is coming the way, in an unexpected situation...

God had brought me thru 9years of a new life with HIM... next year, i will celebrate 10years walk with HIM... and i do hope, i can walk closer with him each day, as he bring me along the journey he had plan for me...

i m no saint, i m still a man, that could fail HIM once, twice or more, but i do know that, without HIM, i m pure nothing... because of HIM, my journey is so different from where i had start from... how a 52pts person, slowly walking the way towards his no-man land...

i know i had many things more to learn, and i know i can do it! i need to forgo the past hurts, the past experience, the past, and place them under my feet... with those past, i can ensure that i will not repeat the same mistake again... being nice is not the way of wat's lays ahead of me... i need breakthru ideas! breakthru plans! breakthru methods!

GOD's METHODS!...

Waiting for the BEST to come along... even u are near right now, do wait for me... i m running my way towards u, and one day... u'll know...

-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-

(i could only imagine, i could only steal a glance... even when u r standing right in front of me... sometimes, fears of the past stop me from walking across the line... i took a step back... but i know, if i dont ever cross the line, i will never finish the finishing line... so right now, i am working hard to cross that line! when i need a hand, lend me your hands... and PULL ME ACROSS!!!)

322am... i end here...

-confused, uncertain, unsure-

one moment, i m sure it's God's promise, the next moment, the devil trys to confuse me... then, i become uncertain of whether is it the voice of the lord, or my own assuming that god promise me these or that... then i became unsure or myself... oh oh oh well...

then again, God's message shared in hof again, didnt come by chance, even when the devil trys to tired me out, i still heard what the pastor had shared during the services... i m tired, but i not wore out! so i still recieve thy word! clearly and meaningfully~

so how? and as i glance my eyes to the side, i saw what God is doing... ensuring that if i trust him, he will do the impossible possible! i just hav to do his work, and he will bless in time to come! so... i hav to be sure... i dun want to waste any opportunity or waste my cost!

how to be sure? comprimise with the world? or stand firm for him! of coz stand firm for him la! he is the almighty wor! cannot let other stuff confuse me... or give wrong impression of things... cannot be jealous... cannot be too high up, cannot alot cannot la... must try to understand, when time to know, u will know... dont hav to find ways to know anything... things u shld know, will eventually tell u... so be patient!... if God allows it to happen, got his reason la... so yah... try to forget the past... move forward to the future... oh...

i cant help looking forward to friday and sunday each time... i also dunnno y...

-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-

(you looked so beautiful today... thou i only steal a few glance... i cant take off my eyes from u... HAHA)

if only u know...

-Hunted by Bad Memories-

as always when i m alone on the road... driving after classes, along my way home... there's always a kind of silence in the car... uncare wat the road condition are, which idiots other drivers were, whether on fast or slow motion... as i drive along, thoughts of the past, keeps hunting their way into my mind... recalling of good and bad stuffs... of... very hard to get over stuff... damn...

as i cry to the LORD, with tears, it reflects on what i m doing right now, seems kinda meaningless without a goal infront of me... an objective on wat i m doing... why m i studying so hard for? why m i working so hard for... whats the purpose in life right now? or shld i just give up everything and go to the mission field? haha... i wonder... who can heal my thoughts... who can find my way thru... GOD, where are you?

oh man... every time i take up a step for HIM, devil always want to find their ways back into my lifes... as i resist more, i almost keep going down... but i thank GOD for his strength each time... i want to stay strong! so GOD... let ur angels surround themselves around me! send one who can keep me awake! i m falling aslp soon! oh GOD... a comforter and listener...

NELVIN! JIA YOU!

-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-

(i want the best, so i wait for the best)

=D whether it's God's WILL anot, let it be...

-MARCH FEVER-

i going crazy, i see my schedule for march... its crazy!!! i dun even know which one to put as number 1 to do, or not to do... projects, classes, exams, sales, and rt! oh my gosh! it's simply crazy!

tml also crazy! first got NYGH, second XINMIN, third CJC, fourth TJC... what else, NIE! oh my oh my oh my!!! so many things to do, so many places to go! my petrol!!! poor me!!! it's crazy!!! hahaha...

anyway, i hope i can overcome MARCH! and thou i might hav to miss the company trip if happens, i will... coz i couldnt afford to miss the others! it's so impt! got 3 EXAMS! 1 case study, 1 PROJET to DO!!! MY OH MY!!! damn...

today, recieved extra income! weeeeeeeeeeeeeee... shopping tml!!! lol!!! to destress myself first, therefore can chiong !!! if not, i will just go crazy... but it's also good la, so i can hav busy mind, and not draw away in sad thoughts! lol...

ok... i shall close XINMIN tml, and NYGH~ pls PRAY FOR ME!!!

-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-

(shld i wait, or head another direction?)

-ministed by HIM-


God has his ways, and always his ways is the best... sometimes i felt so alone, but his words, his songs, his love and grace show mercy on me! on how much he have done for me in my life... for wat he has done! so great, so deeply!

oh well! God is the most wonderful name i ever learn! so, time to work harder! to do the best of my life, to write another story! what kind? all the kinds! kekeke
tml work again... a story to be continue! a story to fight on! a story to move myself up and above! keke...

pray for me, pray with me, pray along and lets pray for one another!

to Her: if i hav the courage, if i hav the strength, i will purse u like a princess in the tower of a flaming dragon! but now, pray for me, that i could overcome the fear! if u r the one!

-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-

(as i draw near, i took another step backwards)

-a long day-

reach home at 8am, slp and woke up at 1pm... eat bunch and head off to heart dot sports...

my blk had a drama this morning, shallnt say much, it's a not a good sign...

had a game of rounders, everything went fine, until the last moment! i miscue and there i went, lost the game! hahaa... wat a mistake, but doesnt matter la, it's not a big deal after all... keke

went to 21st bday, saw and understand more certain stuff, hahaha, welcome back! lol... oh well, the old people coming back stronger in life liao... oh yeah!

then go rich's place, played another game of 4... lol... keke...

today, suddenly began to think alot, alot alot alot... what m i missing in life? and who are the surrounding ppl! that i shld even be aware of... lol...

looking towards march... when i will gain my promotion and increament... hard work of 2years, finally pays off!!! so... i wonder! is these wat i reali want in life? i dunno... and i also be given acjc sales! shiok... freefreat!

now my focus is doing well in my studies and career... building up something big and achievable... so that i wont let my family down! lol...

GOD! help me to love you more, help me to serve you more, help me to be who you want me to be! :)

i began to reflect the journey i went thru, the hard tough and bland journey! i want my next journey to be exciting! entertaining! strong! ahahha...

-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-

(do i hav what it takes, to fight for her?)

-what a day-

firstly got no sales, pay and spend $ on petrol, servicing, and then dunno what else...

next, i bump my car again... this time is the backside... again parking... is like what the hell lo! haizz... foolishness again... mindset dunno go where, always lydat... onli can blame, mYSELF!

for not able to protect my lovely lancer! haizzz...

just not my day today! realli... it's not!

videos was nice, pastor marion shared once again, a strong message about temptation during relationship... so those couples out there, BEWARE! so is the singles! dont be like ediS*n chan and those females stars!

dont be silly n naive! be wise! chose the right person! handsome cute and charming are players! so becareful! those with looks and charism usually will make use of it to CHEAT girls! so, be blind and be fool! hahahhaa...

anyway, after service, i went to loo, then go collect the stuff to return her... but then, when i come back, where is she? NOWHERE to be found! idiot one... haha... i go all the way to B1 ok! everytime lydat... MIA... oh well... jus hav to wait till sunday lo... if she lydat again, then DONT blame me for not returning! bleah!

sian, another year gone by... 2009 will be a better year! lol... GOD!!! listen! hear my CRY!!! PLEASE! THANKS! lol...

-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-

(i glance, i stare, i wink, i was lost)

-a question tat gone wrong-

hehe...

details, i shall just keep to myself... and just stating is that, it's a question that had gone wrong... shld hav just be more causal... i doesnt want to show so despo... hahaha... just an offer... :)

ok, tml is another day to do sales... hope i can do like wat i did today... 4 n more orders...

tml, have to dress up? i wonder shld i go home first not... or just go straight, hmm... i wonder...

ok, try harder nelvin! 80%! dont waste!

-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-

(i will not give up without a fight, no matter how much time it takes)

-ah ah ah long, ah ah ah long eh long eh-

u want a great laugh, on a budget, low uncut verision, quality movie? catch ah long pte ltd... good entertainment on a poor film film... but overall... good laugh! thats all!

hehe...

ok, today i recieve an sms... by, aunty J... last week when i recieve, i didnt reply, but today... i reply becuz the msg put... DEAR NELVIN! hahaha...

anyway, i was at NTU today, was hoping to see the sight... but didnt... oh well, just hav to be patient! hehe...

i m so tire.d.. oh well, no sales today, not good! hehe, i go slp liao... tml be a better day! more sight!

oh ya, i add something to my laptop! SKIN! hehe...

-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-

(kinda miss ur smile) :)

-happy 21st kim sang leng-

haha... ok today i basicly slack whole day, and nothing better to do, and then go class for presentation... once again, manage to bypass it again! hehe...

oh well, what i did today, was nothing! chat around, watch tv, and then, daydreaming lo...

in the car, i spoke with GOD, asking him for direction, and ask him to bless me! and stuff, and also guide me along... open doors, and make me hav a firm heart! haha...

oh well... days are coming and then, i m aimless... lol...

-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-

(once again, i would love to stare at ur beautiful eyes! HAHA)

-a glimse of moment-

whatever it gonna be spelled... hahahha... today, just another day! but with an impact by danny the radio boardcasting testimony... on how GOD had changed and save him from grace... realli ministered to my life, and the things i am facing right now... and listening to both chinese and english verision, i give myself a thought... and willing to give myself a try on handling stuff together with HIM... and looking forward to work hand in hand with HIM in my life...

eh, why did i tok about this? haha it doesnt relate to my topic... hahahhaha... ok la, a brief intro of the day... COOKIE, chu pattern today, her phone spoil, and she go off for repair... and then later afternoon, call me, ask me about the game BOMB... hahaha... BOMB ADDICT... lol...

then my brothers and i went botak jones tp, to eat... and later i go rich's hse, and we played! hehe... then now i m home, doing my assigment watching tv and then now blogging! hahahahahaha...

PIGGY, if u reading this! HAHAHHA BLEAH!!!

ok, back to my topic... what a moment! unaware, unprepared, UNEXPECTED SIGHT!!! a glimse of moment, that capture a beautiful smile... from a beautiful face, speaking, HI!... hahahhahaha... woooooooooooo... it was like so amaze!!! it's unexplainable, it's just, u know... hahahhaah... anyway, it's just barely 2 secs? haha... oh well... just hope things goes well next time... :D hehe... YEAH!!! going back to work soon! lol... oh well, HOLIDAY PLEASE!!!

-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-

(a glance, a glimse, a moment... captured the eyes!)

HAHAHHAHAA BLEAH... :P

-memories-

as i was driving home just now, at my right side opposite the road, got an image of someone, i left deeply in the centre of my heart... a scar that was left behind, alone and cutting the edge of it...

the memories of happy moments, which therefore install another kind of feelings that it's beyond description. sometimes when i chose to forget, it comes back stronger... i wonder why?

watching both kungfu dunk and CJ7 makes a good laugh, after so much things that had happened overnight... many tough decision made, many mistakes made, many unexpected trials and blessing occurs... ppl come ppl go, thats part of life, and lifestyle is wat is there to be go thru of... whats most impt is, how are u going to handle all these... make good use of it, or let it past away...

A SCAR remains as A SCAR...

make wise decision, never regret when things arent going the right way... before action, THINK with ur brain... ACTION speaks LOUDER than words, so when u chose to walk the right way, never bother about ppl teasing u, ppl look down on u, never consider their option as ur option... CHOSE ur own option! but THINK with ur brain first...

GOOD & BAD... i believe u know what is good, and what is wrong, as u are not below 3years old kid... so, man make wise decision from young... coz things once lost, is lOST... time never turn back, and things wont be the same again... if u want to reach the ultimate gifts, make sure u save ur best for recieving the ultimate gifts... is always nice, to give ur best, when u recieve ur best...!

slowly i learn, slowly i accept, slowly... things arent easy even when nobody noes... the LORD MY GOD had always heard my CRY... i hav a comforter, listener, and encourager always around me, giving me strenght, supports and encourgement! how could i let HIM down? i cant! so ppl! PRAY FOR ME!

i want to overcome all things, and move the mountain from here to THERE!!!

AMEN!

-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-

(dear lord, give me a open door to reach what u are preparing for me)

THANKS

-going without sleep-

went out to chill overnight last night... played billard, drink tea, hav breakfast... hahaha a night out after so long... hahhaa...

just came home, also fall aslp when driving... haha, good thing i endure until now, still can blog, before i knock out for a nap, before i hav to do stuff later again... hehe...

oh well...

-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-

(time to get even... hehe)

-back from bali-

i'm back, and i m sick! hav to go toilet each time after i eat something! damn, must be some food i ate... argh! stop y rest and relax yesterdae...

oh after touch down, did mnay things, go NTUC buy lots of food!!! and really lots of food!!! and then, go to ikea buy chairs and bowls! wow! lots of things to do sia... hehe... i wonder who m i going to invite!

hmm... wat's up!!! lol...

ok, bali overall is alright, koreans girls are just ok only lah, kns say very chio... haha... the most only 1 can make it in my list only loh... hahaha... but well, but at least 2 hongkong girls came into my list... at least something to look forward to once a year conference... HAHAHHAHA... but then hor, last year got one cute one, this year never come... maybe she quit liao... who knows... hahahaha...

ok la, tml i shall go see doctor and clean my room and do my assigment... haha...

-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-

(oh, 7 more days! then i got a chance to glance at u! lol... oh well... V day is coming, sux man)

Nelvin Ng
Unknown

When I Look Up the Stage, I See the REAL HER...
She is Godly, Lovely, Silly...

M 23 Nov 2015 --------

October 2004
November 2004
December 2004
May 2005
June 2005
July 2005
August 2005
September 2005
October 2005
November 2005
December 2005
January 2006
February 2006
March 2006
April 2006
May 2006
June 2006
July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
July 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
September 2009
October 2009
December 2009
March 2010
April 2010
May 2010
August 2010
October 2010
December 2010
August 2012
September 2012


It Start With A Kiss Soundtrack