WATs-UP?
hmm... today is a hard day for me... been to work late again thanks to me falling back to slp after waking up... vir... u influence me le la... keep saying u fall aslp after seeing bed, then i see my own i also... haha
crap sia... then struggle at work place not to fall aslp... but somehow cant... every piece of data i type, i suddenly knock out any moment... haha... cant believe i still manage to type when i slping... how weird...
well today suppose to go eastcoast after work, but didnt... coz TC nv go, so i shldnt go... and i thank God i didnt go... coz i found out some ppl went la... which i dun think i m comfortable with... so Thank God i didnt go la... haha
so... i went somewhere todae... hehe... found some of them, yah... quite fun seeing them play some game and doing forfeed la... that boy was suppose to do the chicken dance, but never lo... never... we will get u to dance... haha
then had a short good fellowship with my little Ngs, both of them, at diff time todae... was good... yah...and also with a young man,whom i quite concern abt him now... so is another man, who i going to fellowship tml or wed... yah...
then tok with one of my pals abt hehe... then yah... going to work harder for it... yah... and morning was a surprise... but is ok...
dunno wat to say liao...
-i think i go sleep tml working... tired-
-day by day, i pray that God will preserve-
-you&me-
Nelvin Blogged @ 11:36 PM
-Confuse-
i not the one confuse la... maybe when i was younger like them ba... they seems confuse now... and becoz they r confuse... i am confuse too... coz i trying to fit into their shoes to think what they thinking now...
i also dunno wat to say la...
i only noe...
-iwish-
lalala...
-somethinghappenatfoyer,notrealisomething,butsomethingthatmademe-
-so,hehe,cozitsanothermeaningforme...lalala-
Nelvin Blogged @ 12:47 AM
Saturday, October 29, 2005
-Love me, or Hate me...-
wah today was a busy day for me... first gotta wake up to go register for my bro tution thing... and duo is for needy, i hav no choice... then he be on the standby list i suppose la... hehe
then alone went to yiochukang book my BASIC again... argh irriating... lol... keep failing coz i lousy in MCQ... and maybe i never study hard enough! so this time... GOD... everything is in ur hands... You help me did so well in my MCQ for my training pay... God u gonna help me again... i very sian so see all my younger peers getting their license and haolian to me... so irriating... yah good for them who hav la... but i will have mine... i juz hav to work hard for it... GOD!!! help me!!! hehe
God... i also want a Job !!! i very very very long to get a perm Job... a Job that provides! a Job that u want me to progress in! God!!! Open DOORS!!!
God... pls pls pls pls pls... see those who are enlisting, in the army, and coming out soon... God... see them thru tough times, tempting times, and give them hunger heart that long to seek u thru their difficult times... so that they be stronger in u... God give them strenght which u gave me when i go thru my 2yrs+... u helped me... u can help them too!
hmm... today outreach was good... also young ppl... hehe... and wah seh got one kid... reali piss me off... so so so... KL... haha... God help me to control sia... reali reali wanted to ... lol...
then went dinner... was small grp... good fellowship and... haha...
-haventhadenough-
-lalala lalala-
-nite NItez was sweet-
-WHahAHhahHAHahhahAHhAhahhaha-
=p
Nelvin Blogged @ 10:57 PM
Love is Simply...
-I LOVE YOU-
Nelvin Blogged @ 12:38 AM
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
I'm Hungry
Hungry...
how do i fill my hungryness...
Onli One Man can fill...
he is SON oF GOD...
Only he... will fill me when i open my mouth...
He will never let me thirst again, when i follow him...
Spiritual FOOD is what he Offers...
More fulfilling than worldy food...
IS more than a chicken a duck a cow or a pig can fill it...
His Flesh, HIs Blood FILL US, CLEANSE US, And WARm Us!
Wat else could we ask for?
Only TASK on earth is to...
SEek him, DO his WOrk, ReAd HIs Work...
Is it HArd?
not realli... But we always FAil... Y?
COz there is always trials!
how do we overcome trials?
ASK FOR STRENGTH!
He will deliver Us!
We Need to be faithful! coz he is faithful!
and the LOST is our responsibility!
-yearning-
-lookingforward-
-cryingtohavetheburden-
-walkwithme-
-i'weakbutyoumakemestrong-
-i'mblindbutumakemesee-
-i'mpoorbutumakemerich-
-i'msinnerbutucleansesme-
-i'msorryandyouforgiveme-
-iwanttobeusedbyu-
-usedme!-
Nelvin Blogged @ 11:03 PM
PASSION!
well... today God used pastor lim to share for this message... Very anointing and powerful... we must PRAY PRAY PRAY like the KOREANS we / i saw in korea... praying as One big family and with PASSION!...
they are so united when they pray , we can do it too...
Give Us the Tools, and we finish the JOb!...
We shld be used by Him to plant seeds... he will harvest them!
PASSION!
even watch flightplan... the mother know and confirm her daughter still in the plane and had be hidden... her will power, and passion for her daughter enable her to carry on and continue to search for her daughter even been mistaken as siao ting tong... but she still continue... and it pays off!
we always been looking for the harvest but we nv go thru the hardest from the beginning... how can... trials is trials... the more trials we hav, we shld seek him more... not hiddening not escaping from it... SEEK.... dun always go for shortcut... even R/S take time... to mold from frens to frenster, to falling in love... Not Speeding... not ya i see u todae, one week later go steady then another month then... etc... these few weekends newspaper also say nowadays teenager treat bgr as a game etc... shortcut and all get hurt here and there... haizz...
ya until u know the meaning of Love... then u deserve to love... anothers... if u think love is to gain, obtain, having. hey... u r wrong... lOving someone is not as feelings goes... is a process, a heart, that u willing to serve... serve her . him, others... but most important... SERVE GOD... coz placing him in the centre of ur life... is where u practise purify... in his eyes, his sight,,, he always watching...
do not let ur heart wander... coz... Love is a commitment... dun anyhow anyhow commit to wat u cant fulfill... coz it shows that u are unworthy...
-yasoibetterwatchwatisayidoithinkifeel-
-cozpplabovebelowleftrightcentrearewatching-
-hehe-
-istill-
-out-
Nelvin Blogged @ 10:55 PM
Saturday, October 22, 2005
ok... today wasnt bad afterall...
haha...
well... why? wanna know? dIG my Heart...
lalalalalalalalala...
played minesweep today... wah... i getting better... now got 2 challenger...
hahaha...
twice in 2 day...
lalalalala...
thE ToUch!
Nelvin Blogged @ 11:42 PM
-missing-
the spirit touches me today as samuel, devon , pastor kwek and pastor alan share fore their testimonies on how korea trip touches them and change their life...
yesh... realli indeed... korea trip was fruitfull... learnt alot experience God's almighty Power and presence in Korea and how koreans pray and impact the whole nation... changing from one end to another... and their hungriness for God and their heart for northern korea... It reali melted my heart to cry with them...
their culture also very shocking... everything benefits the ladies... and man there are pathetic ppl... they work and work... and nothing else... poor thing... thank God i not korean man... LOL... and wat i like is that when a Duck tok to a chicken... cross languages and both staring each other like idiots lydat... haha...
ok... then i give some small gifts to some of them la... then... i didnt expect that small gifts can hong them like dunno wat lydat... was kinda surprised la...coz i tot it wasnt good enuff lo... but well... thank God they like it... hehe...
well for those still expecting someting from me... pls wait la... coz haha... good things must wait de... coz cant carry todae to work so will be giving u on sunday... i only left with 3 + 2 + 1 for female... and 2 + 1 for guys... so only left 10 gifts... so who will be the ones??? lalalla
anyway... i noe why i said i am bored juz now when i was chating with joel, lynn clinton they all liao... coz my heart was not there... OPss...
my eyes were looking for someting... or rather... SOMEONE.!!! haizz... coz before i came down to eat my food... someone walked PASt me mah... then she ___________ then i was chating with dunno who... then when i finish... eh... gone... then i go down look around.... bo leh... then i sian mah... HAHA...
yah when i was alone on my way in bus... this tot came mah... so i finally understand why i said i was bored... coz my heart was missing someone mah... but then bo chance to tok mah... so... YAh... thats y la... lol...
i went supper with 2 gentlemen lo... so we fellowship and i share my culture shock in korea... haha... yah nice fellowship even on bus... when we tok abt r/s haha...
yah...
-asigrowclosertohim,hebegantoshowhisplan-
-thingsgoingtoostraightthaticlaimingformore-
-bewithme,asuopenthedoors-
-missingyou-
-out-
Nelvin Blogged @ 12:13 AM
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
I'm BAck
what can i blog about...
i dunno...
hahaahhahahaha
Nelvin Blogged @ 10:26 PM
Pre-post trip...
haha... i dunno wat to say now... i only know, i start to have a heavy burden in my heart... i dunno wat i will miss back in singapore... but is like, having a dun feel like leaving something behind... i cant explain...
i havent even packed yet... and is like... less than 24hrs times... haizz...
i only know, i saw ....
WAT I WANT TO SAY...
I DUNNo...
Nelvin Blogged @ 11:42 PM
Saturday, October 08, 2005
Its hard to be Who u really Are?
how many of you experience life to the fullness? not many i suppose... we often live in regrets for doing what we like to do yet didnt have the chance to do it... and we occasionally will miss opportunity and often we want to always find out what is the outcome if we have done it... and how many will understand why sometimes we didnt do it yet its part of the plan? i wonder... why man are so curious to know so much things and yet not interested to know other stuff when they should be knowing...
what am i trying to bring across?
i have no idea... i juz keep typing thru wat my mind is trying to speaks and says... haha... weird me rite.. i suppose yah...
who really know the real you?
i can say, even myself dont know myself... how do people know who i am? only God who created us will know who we are...and his plan for us... and he also give us choices to chose, and he knows what we chose, thats why his plan is always there ... and we are living thru his plan... but often we draw away from his plan... but by his mercy and grace, he gave each of us enough opportunity to draw back to him, with a willing heart, we can get right with him... but if our heart is harden, and we miss the last chance and his coming, we ... i dunno how to say la, but. i pray that i wouldnt fall out of his plan... coz i believe his plan is always the best... my plan always fail my own dream... but my desirer, God Knows, and he will bless when i am right with him...
(i wanna thank God for opening doors for me to go CGI in 2 days time, his grace and mercy and opportunity for me to experience a period of trusting in him, having faith and believing that, i will be able to pay my airtickets, accomodation and, Thank GOD for bringing diff loves one, family members and frens to help me along the way, and those special Love Offering by some love ones... THANKS ALOT... yah coz it reali is his mercy and helping me to be discipline in saving those 6 weeks of hard work in SIAEC... and helping me not only pay CGI trip and also my other Bills... haha... THANK GOD... yup... and also special thanks to some who blessed me with coat, shoes, pants, and tie... u know who u r... thanks ALOT... and wat else... i reali been thru alot since i register for that trip... and looking to see what God had fulfill soon in 2 days... and i will blog about the trip if possible daily updates... coz... realli... I been to Peacemaker... its wonderful, i learn alot, i see how God is blessing philippines... and i see how God used us when we r there. and how God wants us to share the blessing back home in singapore... to share the experiences and yah... THANK GOd... i hope to see God using others young people ... and if u hav the chance to go ... PLS DO GO... hav faith to believe God will help u go thru tough times... and i believe i will get a Good JOB when i am back from CGI trip)
hmm... the Joy of the Lord is more than anything else... coz he is the author and finisher of Life... we are his story... coz he create Our Stories... each one of us leads a story... But his Story is always there... never been forgetten... becoz HE LIVES ...
-tats all for today... having a headache now... very pain... overworked...-
Nelvin Blogged @ 10:07 PM
God is a Fighter, a Warrior and a Victory!
wah what a powerful lesson, PAstor chui had share... God's Words reali hit us hard todae... we are awaken by him... he always Knows when to Hit Us, since we always going to fall aslp each time...
He is a fighter... are we?
He is a Warrior, Are We?
We Should always learn from him...
i suddenly lose of words now... cant realli noe wat i wanted to share...
sighz... must be too tired... hehe...
i remember then i type...
-gdnite-
Nelvin Blogged @ 12:02 AM
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
looking at those youth now, reminded me of my past... falling in love, wanting to do more for the others... etc... just wanna share what this author shares... which i m very very impressed... and yah...
-MADE FOR EACH OTHER-
This is now bone of my bones,
and flesh of my fleshs;
she shall be called "woman"
for she was taken out of man...
sometimes we keep asking ourselves, who is he/her, when m i going to meet my soulmate, why is love so hard to find, and why cant i chase him/her now? when then can we start a r/s? y must he/she be christian too? and why this and why that!
"My Child, what you must try to see is that nothing has changed. When the Maker brings you your wife/husband, you will aware that it was He who make you for each other and He who planned your meeting and in that moment, sing a song of praise to Him."
-Trust the Maker to bring what was Good-
what the author learnt after KISSING DATING GOODBYE
and what i hav learnt...
what is your will God? is she the one? help me to be patient? show me when to act. help me trust you... (these happens when you in earthly ways, like someone, and you wish to express ur feelings to her, but unsure whether issit God's will and timing to act)
Author beliefs (i agree with him)
-that lifestyle of short-term relationships was a detour from serving God as a single, so best term is... while u kept ur social life, female/male frens, and desire to get married one day, u should stop dating!
having a relationship that doesnt submit to God, will lead u to sinful desirer and how selfish u r, and also u hurt the other party...
what did it mean to truly love a girl? what did it feel like to really be pure- in body and heart? and how did God want us to spend our single years? was it merely a time to try out different girls romantically (WHICH IS NO!)
why not enjoy frenship with opposite gender but use out energy as singles to serve God?
ppl often ask, if u dont date, how u end up married?
when u reach a point that u r ready for marriage, then u say hello to courtship... which u hav waited for romance as a singles...
dont let impatient run a upper hand on u, dont communicate ur interest until u are ready to start a r/ship... that has a clear purpose and direction.
question u shld ask urselves...
1) are u prepared spiritually and emotionally for marriage?
2) could u provide fro a wife and family?
3) was this God's time for me to pursue a r/ship?
this is only the part one of the book... and i believe that we shld rethink ourself and our life... whether we shld be thinking of marriage at this point of time... for me... i guess is no... coz i still hav plenty to offer God my service... as a single... and i believe God going to use me and mold me deeper before he allow someone to enter my life...
even how much i desirer and admirer someone... i guess, i gonna let go now... and if she's God's will for me, God will preserve... if not, God has greater plans... yupz... so people who is reading... I'hav grown up... HAHA... no more plan b for me... is only God's plan...
i can still like her, but i wun think that much beyond... i wanna concentrate on my Life with God first...
-out-
Nelvin Blogged @ 10:17 PM
~When Boy Meets Girl~
having to get back my this beloved book of mine... this time round when i read, i discovered many things in my life which i hadnt when the first time i read... and thus far, i going to set revision myself, my vision, and my entire lifestyle in the way God planned for me...
i'm not going to let things that i desirer to draw me away from serving the almighty God, and i wanna set things right, not by my own strenght, but by God laying his hands upon my life...
seeing ppl around me, getting into different kind of problems, situation, seeing myself falling apart, going thru tough times, and after, reading thru my own devotion, i found out, many things starts to show what God has done in my life, thru G12 lessons, Sunday's services, HOF, and many other ways that God is trying to tell me, hey nELVin, r U AWAKE NOW? i replied:' yah?' oh man... i wasnt right with him... i m not yeaning for him, NO... its gonna end... i going to get right, and RIGHT NOW iT MUST... yupz... these few days, i been reading more of God's words, preparing myself for Korea... and i wanna hav the right heart, right attitude, right mind, right self... to go... so i wun waste this trip...
i know i cant depend on myself... i need to depend on God... and God is going to use me thru this coming trip... and using me to bless others when i m blessed...
i also recently applied this job... in tp girls' home... u may think its crazy, Nelvin... counselling girls with problems? hello... i not sure about myself, but i see another vision in my life... wat if, if i realli got the job... God can use me in this area? and i can even lead them to God? who Knows... i can easily chat up with ah lians... coz i m brought up those ways in the past? WHo KNOW? i DUNNo... God knows... if its his will, he will open the door... and when he do, m i ready for just a task? Hopefully YEsh... i Must... coz Its HIs PlAn, for me to serve...others... YAh? i thinking too far... but i know, if its his plan, it will come to past... and if its not... i wun treat it as failure, but a experiment in applying a Job of his plan...
well... another thing... i read about Marriage... m i thinking too far and too much for such plan in my life? m i ready to support a family? to lead the women in my life? to serve spiritually and to be able to glory God in my courtship days? M i ? i dunno...
for now... God doesnt want me to take marriage as idol over him... he wants me to serve him with all my heart n soul... so i should just focuz on Him and him alone... serving him and serving others... like be more serious in my ministry... my members in g12... and yesh, i thank God for being double certified... but its not going to stop there... we going further... and with God, we can...
yah...
-ichoseyourways,iletotherdesiresgo,-
-iwannajustfocusondoingyourwayandonlyyourway-
-LORD,myGOd...Bewithme-
Nelvin Blogged @ 9:59 PM
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
are you striving to live and work without compromise in a tough place? are u doing ur best but ur best is not enough? colossians 1:29 reminds us that dependence on God's mighty power within us is what makes us effective.
john, the businessman summed it up like this" God helps me do better than i can!
he will do the same for you
savior, let me walk beside thee, let me feel my hand in thine, let me know the joy of walking, in thy strenght and not in mine.
Nelvin Blogged @ 9:02 PM
My Heart SaNk...
today i attended both services... and it was like so COLD lo... dunno why and i was wearing... wah pang... SO COLD LiKe so coLD la... haha wat else...
then... service WAS AnIONTINg aND was Ministered la... and my heart SAnk For CHina... how missionaries work hard and give their life to SHare God's Word to China... and with so much hard Work and effort... TheY planted the seeds and after so Many years... God harvested them...
All are working along God's plan and timing... and peoPLe are coming into relationship with God... So... we mustnt stop his work... we must continue to Pray and give in to the kingdom of God... for everyone to Pluck into ministering his WORd... yah...
then went for breakfast... was... not bad la... coz terry with us mah... then is like first time after how mani donkey years that i had breakfast with HIM... lunch n dinner quite anumber of time la... but BREAKFAST was something NEW... haha...
then went for english service... was at foyer when we register for the
konquerers... crap sia... they dun dare be first to register and i say... then u put my name first la... haha... and guess wat they did... AND... ppl WILl THINK waH... NELVIN FIRST TO REgister so ON... haha... later i nv come... sure go coffee session with p.marion... haha...
then she came... wah... so... hahahhahahahhhahahha....
then my few darlings appear... haha...
one of them QUIte DAO... but nvm... coz chat with her abit after service... and is very abit la...
wah... the konquerers video clip damn nice... i dun think i ever dare to face such storm... but if i reali do... i pray that i hav the Strenght to stay alive! haha
wah today... MAE so CUTE lo... buay tehan... cant wait to get hold of her... LOL...
wat else... OH... after my lesson... i saw this CUte yeLLOW Girl... i teased her... WAH today NEVER... weAR GREEn huh... then she paiseh... haha... -she will noe who she is if she ever remember and read this blog- WHAHahha
chat WITh PIgleT during my mrt ride... was a great catching up... i stumbled her abit la... with my EVIL Ways... HAHa.... not reali evil la... juz shared some of my growing up days and then wat i will react towards some ppl la...
wat else did i do... oh yah played BAttlefield... some how no mood le... then CS also like shit... juz dun hav the feel todae...
went drank ice troppical PASsion tea... haha.... PASSION...
then go kopi tiam eat...
pAI POOl... got some mood...
then... at bus stop...
-todaysomehowendquitewell-
-Godisalwaysogoodtome-
-whenidontthink,heshowsigns-
-GOD...iwanttogetrightwithyou- give me the heart and desirer
-8daysleft...iwannahavtherightdesirertogothere...
-workingyourworkandnotforgettingmyresponisbiliy-
-God,guidemetoagoodpermjob,u see my heart oh LOrd...-
-thankYouLORd-
-nelvin- (sign out)
Nelvin Blogged @ 10:29 PM
