Thursday, December 27, 2007
-Day 1 of My New Beginning-
everything was alright today... i went shopping with tc after work, coz someone paisey me lo... hahaha... nothing abt work la, just boring...
been reading alot lately, to know and draw closer to God, so that i will not think away... and recalling, how God was so good to me, and the people surroundin me etc... listening to music and thinking reflecting myself...
oh well...
i need to be strong... i need to be strong... even duo i wanted to cry at times... i hav to save my tears... and i need to be strong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! God please help me, lift me up, and set me freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!
how much i want to cry, i keep my tears...
yawn...
-when i look up the stage, i still see the REAL HER-
Nelvin Blogged @ 12:17 AM
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
-Christmas 2007-
i cant say it's the best, but i can say is that, it chanded my life deeply. Thru the things happened thruout this year, and how it was start good and ended bad, and on other hand, i learnt more things... things that is learnt when God taken everything i hav away from me, so that i could go back to the start, and run the race again.
I hav walked the wrong lane of the race, and God just pressed a restart button. so now, i am doing my warm-ups, and will run the race again on 26th Dec 2007 onwards. which means, Next year CHRISTMAS 2008 will be my closing date, and on that day, i will do a reflection on what hav i done in year 2008. on whether did i do things that glorify him, or hav i let him down again... we shall see...
My goals next year is simple...
WALK HIS WAYS, LISTEN, and WORK HARD...
and of coz, it's easy said than done... so PRAY FOR ME!
I WANT TO BE A BLESSING TO EVERYONE! so wei wo jia you bah! GANBETTE!
-When i look up the stage, i still see the REAL HER-
is she the her?
God knows...
Nelvin Blogged @ 12:33 AM
Monday, December 24, 2007
-When God Seems Distant-
When God seems distant, you may feel that he is angry with you or is disciplining you for some sin. in Fact, sin does disconect us from intimate fellowship with God. We grieve God's spirit and quench our fellowship with him by disobedience, conflict with others, busyness, friendship with the world, and other sins.
But often this feeling of abandonment or estrangement from God has nothing to do with sin. It is a test of faith - one we all must face. Will you continue to love, trust, obey, and worship God, even when you have no sense of his presence or visible evidence of his work in you life?
The most common mistake Christians make in worship today is seeking an EXPERIENCE rather than seeking God. They look for a feeling, and if it happens, they conclude that they have worshiped. WRONG! in fact, God often removes our feelings so we wont depend on them. Seeking a feeling, even the feeling of closeness to CHRIST, is not worship.
When you are a baby Christian, God gives you a lot of confirming emotions and often answers the most immature, self-centered prayers - so you'll know he exists. But as you grow in faith, he will wean you of these dependencies.
God's omnipresence and the manifestation of his presence are two different things. One is a fact: the other is often a feeling. God is always present, even when you are unaware of him, and his presence is too profound to be measured by mere emotion.
Yes, he wants you to sense his presence, but he's more concerned that you trust him than that you feel him. Faith, not feelings, pleases God.
The situations that will stretch your faith most will be those times when life falls apart and God is nowhere to be found. This happened to Job. On a single day he lost everything - his family, his business, his health, and everything he owned. Most discouraging - for thirty-seven chapters, God said nothing!
How do you praise God when you don't understand what's happening in your life and God is silent? How do you stay connected in a crisis without communication? How do you keep your eyes on Jesus when they're full of tears? You do what Job did: 'Then he fell to the ground in worship and said: "Naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked i will depart. The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away, may the name of the Lord be praised.'
Nelvin Blogged @ 12:15 AM
Saturday, December 22, 2007
-a day of surprise-
Met my BEST FREN for lUNCH at Sizzler! we eat till damn FULL!!! hahahaha... good fellowship with her, which is quite bliss to hav such fren still hanging ard nearby... which i guess, i wish it will maintain till forever...
oh man...
many things i wanna say but i guess, i m my own self, i love to keep things to myself... hahahah... anyway, h.s was next then, at night i went down to jurong to do a special mission...
and it's a success!!!
hhahahaha...
but then trouble comes after that when i was on my way home... bad memories returns when i past by that place!!!
i felt like shit! angry and etc...
but i guess i hav to ask God to help me overcome it!
oh GOD my LORD, please help me! thanks!
sunday is now, monday hav to go office... boring!!!
so many things, so little time to think!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!
-when i look up the stage, i still see the real her-
is she the one?
man, i m sneezing now again! damn!
Nelvin Blogged @ 11:35 PM
-Weird dream-
i got waken up while having this weird dreams just now... it was an scene that a normal scene of purely just taking a photo... but then, the person i m taking with, is like someone within my list, but then abit too young la... hahaha...
so i dunno what this dream is about, coz i wanted to know more, but was waken up by my best fren sms la... idiot her... hahaha... so i dunno what God is trying to say or tell me la, but i just hope part 2 of the dreams will come soon, so that i could understand the meaning of it!
lol...
weird huh? coz thruout the night, the dreams are diff, until the last part... short version... but kindly clear, yet blur... so dun ask me... i also hav no idea... and the dream in my mind is slowly fading aways in my memory... so... yar... hahaha...
weird!
-When i look up the stage, i still see the real her-
oh ya, chester ask me to go for it! i m like, m i ready for another challenge? haha... i hav no idea... coz i still hav a responibility to fulfill! so... i dunno... wait and see then...
stay tune!
Nelvin Blogged @ 10:52 AM
-Christmas Banquet-
Was a alright day for me, manage to get many presents for those people who remember me and that, i got to know so many secrets out of sudden!!! hahaha...
Nelvin, u are such an arse! knowing too much not good le! hahaha, i dont care!
ok, today word of God had ministered my life once again... and i right now, know what i hav to do, and what i need to do... even the drama had taught me so much that, i didnt hav found out myself! i was so touched!
Individual - me...
Soul - the only thing will be with me...
Family & Frens - will only last till the grave...
Status and Possession - something i purse materialism...
Body - things that is flesh...
is like having 4 wifes of different characteristic... which i hav to chose only 1 of it, which will help me, go with me, till the end! in pursing the right cause of life... and i believe SOUL is in me, and with me!
Knowing that, i havent lay down my past, yet i have to, yet it's my responsibility to know that, i need to help, it was simply so confusing! haha... but all i can depend now is that God can give me direction, in doing all things! becoz my mind is always giving me different situation to handle, different plans and ways to do it... one moment this, next is this, anger comes, anger goes, joy came, joy goes... and wats more...
Even when giving ur best to all, yet at the end, u might just get backstabbed... so whether it's worth it or not is one things, fulfilling what u need to do is another... so very luan right, i also dunno what i trying to say or type now~! lol...
As i always share, LOVE is one thing, ADMIRE is another thing, Vision is another too! I SEE, I THINK, I FEEL... sometimes, when u cant see things, u can feel it's presences... sometimes, when u think, u could see... and sometimes when u feel, u think! all these 3 element is just such a impressive ways...
God truelly know how to handle us man... As i told someone or many ones recently that, a broken relationship makes me purse God more... and i finally understand why i did said that...
back in 2001, i had a transformation in which that, God send someone to called me when i was about to leave CHURCH... but becoz of that someone who called, he is a guy by the way, so dont think else where... becos of his call, i feel this concerns, his words is like God speaking to me thru him... telling me, that GOD LOVES ME, and all these trials he gave me is to make me stronger for him!
but after 6yrs, this trial onces again taught me another things, which is more deeper, higher, and stronger impact on me... that will even lead me to be STRONGER and even More stronger than before, and ensuring me that, if i do fore his WAYS, there is plenty of blessing awaits in blessing the people around me, and me!
so now, i just hav to weight the values of all things in this world, that whether will it lead me away from HIM not... and i just want to be stronger thru these coming years...
and for -when i look up the stage, i still see the real her-, maybe next year, i will let u know my decision on whether shld i even purse u anot! haha... even if i m, and i not doing anything, do remember that, i just need time to get back my self! hahahah... and at the same time, u do ur prayers, and i do mine...
God... help me lord... thanks...
MErry Christmas people!
ciao...
Nelvin Blogged @ 3:05 AM
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
-BOOK OUT DAY-
yeah! i m home finally. and when i was just outside the camp gate, my phone dropped into the big canel drain... like what the hell lo! then i hav to jump down 5 meter deep and pick up my phone, worst than OUTFIELD!... the challenge i hav and to climb up! which is so hard! THANK GOD, that he hav placed a small bunch of wood that i can step on and jump up... if not i sure stucked at the canel drain!
return home, i emailed back the email la, and i dunno why, i find peace! HAHAHAHA... was troubled on whether shld i email back or not, but eventually i did. and it wasnt wat my advisor advised. i was typing with wisdom. a harsh one duo! but in code form! hahahahahhha... whether the reciever do it or not, it's their CHOICE! i cant be bothered anymore! bleah!
haha... CHRISTMAS is coming, i got to buy present soon! tml will it be! hehe...
overall camp was alright until just now, when they f* it up by backstabbing me... oh well, i forgive them, they are just jealous of my capablilty over them, and if they want to gain respect from me, EARN IT! i do not easily respect anyone if they dont earn it! if they continue to be such an bastard... i cant help them anymore... hahaha...
oh well...
looking forward to tml BEN&JERRY!
yeah!!! and shopping! lol... i need a break man!!! HOLIDAYS!!!
-when i look up the stage, i still see the REAL HER-
God, Let thy WILL be DONE upon my Life...
Nelvin Blogged @ 5:18 PM
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
-12/12/2007-
A day which i suppose to be in camp, and i booked out!
for my exam at 7pm... and i m currently at home!
for those who wished me HAPPY birthday! u will get present for christmas!
and for those who didnt... sorry eh, no present! hahaahaha
I asked God to give me sign, on who to give, so those who remember me, will recieve... and for those who didnt, next year! hahahahhahaa...
a reservist with a punch! tml onwards will be tough as we be out in field more... and i hope i do well for today exam, please pray for me! thanks...
suppose to be a wonderful birthday this year, but many things happended, it changed, and it also changed my views of many things... and i was brought back closer to GOD... AMEN! hahaha... now i know that, i have been escaping alot from my 18th birthday calling... so... it's time to get back! on track!
yeah!!!
7 more days to FREEDOM!
pray for me, and i m still coughing! pray for healing! thanks!!!
-When i look up the stage, i still see the real her-
GOOD DAY!
Nelvin Blogged @ 4:50 PM
Saturday, December 08, 2007
-Rayak Victory @ HOF CAMP 2007 & MY Breakthrough with God-
this is AAR = after action review of my experience in this camp...
duo it wasnt the most exciting as it rains, but it was my breakthrough for the year...
i was looking forward to experience more with God, and this camp really comes in at the right time when i realli needed God the most...
after a long year and tiring year this year... it is coming to the end and 2008 awaits us, and therefore i am looking forward for a new year and a new start!
after ending a so-called long distance bgr, and will awaits my next and final one in the coming years ahead... which i will wait for the best, and never going to settle for any second best anymore... as i m tired to go into a r/s that doesnt going to last! haha... kiss dating GOODBYE!!! :P
hate me or love me...
well this camp was the first time, i didnt realli get to hang out with my cliques from church as we kinda been in different region and many activitives does involve region effort, and it was kinda that, i got more involved without any ranks on me... haha... and well, best of all, i got to know more kids from church from my region, when i dun even know or try to know them when i was a leader... but when i m not a leader, i m able to mix with them better... y? haha... i hav no idea...
and during the last service, it cames my BREAKTHROUGH i long waited~! it wasnt plan or anything, God just came... learnt quite alot during this camp, and began to let go of many thoughts in my mind, that wasnt doing good for me...
build bonds with many of them, and yar... know more secrets! haha...
i cant wait to end this year, and begin next year... duo its a tough road ahead, i m looking forward to the challenges that awaits me, becoz i know, now i hav GOD more powerful in my LIFE then ever before! becoz i m RECHARGE and RENEW! therefore i willing to FIGHT and lay my LIFE down for HIM~~~!
if happens that i misuse his words, or do things that wasnt pleasing, PLEASE feel free to rebuke me! but make sure u rebuke in front of me la... coz if u rebuke me at my back, i will slaughter you as ever before! hahahaha :PpPPppPp
God is good, all the time...
I not just want to know about him, I WANT TO KNOW MORE OF HIM!!!
as i end, my favourable phrase of mine...
-GODLY, LOVELY, SILLY-
if u fit the bills, come for audition! hahahaha...
-When i look up the stage, i still see the REAL HER-
Nelvin Blogged @ 2:30 AM
Sunday, December 02, 2007
-a day of laughter-
a moment of decision...
i attended class today, and found my lecturer very frank, and nice of coz, he stayed back to teach me 1 on 1 about the lesson i missed. and taught me quite a number of things about changing of job, as well as other stuff...
1 thing enlighten me which is...
TIME to move forward, and never look back of your past... focus of your goals you set, and MOVE towards it... the past are just lesson to learn from and not to repeat it's history again... as well as, Dont wait, Purse it now! as opportunity dont come by so often...
haha...
on my way home, i was thinking abt it, m i ready to purse wat it takes now? haha... i wish i could, but i dont think i was ready... so back home, as i was online... SUDDENLY!!! she came online...!!! hahahaha... opportunity cost...
as chatting, i guess i wasnt ready at all, so i decided not to try anything funny, just make frens first lo... yeah...
almost gave myself away again... lol...
whether she knows or she dunno, it doesnt matter... as long as now my focus is still study can liao... woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...
tml onwards it MIA for nelvin already... as i wont be in singapore for 5days, 2 days study, then follow by 10 days reservist... man!!! life is going to be so busy and gone... hahahahhaa...
well... i gonna miss u...
-When i look up the stage, i still see the REAL HER-
-GODLY, LOVELY, SILLY-
lalala...
Nelvin Blogged @ 10:30 PM
Saturday, December 01, 2007
-new beginning-
hehe...
went for interview today, wah seh... alot of babes LEH!!! but then, too bad la, God didnt allow me to join that company la... so ya, but to Square 1... HAHAHAHA...
after interview, was kinda late liao, so instead of going to class, i change my mind and went to heart.sport instead...
and i m glad i went... coz i got such a good view!!! whahahhahahaha...
well, it's good to be able to see such a view...
wat view? hehe...
oh well... it will be just a view, i shallnt say much... time will tell...
-When i look up the stage, i still see the REAL HER-
-Godly, Lovely, Silly-
thats all i can say...
Merci!
Je t'amie
Nelvin Blogged @ 11:45 PM
-Top 10 List-
i got nothing to do, so i will list out the top 10 in my life right now...
1. Godly, Lovely, Silly...
2. Sharkky... (Past)
3. Sotong Sa...(Past)
4. Best Friend...(Standby)
After that, the list will be more interesting... hahahhaha...
5. Nice, Interesting and Lovely...
6. Cooks, Lovely and Charming...
7. hmm...
8. hmm...
9. hmm...
10. scanning le...
Nelvin Blogged @ 1:43 AM
