Thursday, October 29, 2009
-direction thoughts-
have you ever wonder, what it takes to heal a relationship? be it family ties, frenship, bgr, or whatever?
after the person had some misunderstanding, hurts, or any kind of trouble with you or whoever so?
well...
it will depends on your direction thoughts on how you see things in life... whether are you contented with what you have, or you r not happy with certain things in life. oh well...
if you ever wonder what it takes to be who you are or to be someone you wish to become, but have to go thru a long journey and make commitment and sacrifice things that you love most?
dream of going somewhere you cant, and still insist of going?
come on... live your life to the fullest! not reaching your dreams is ok! not fulfilling your dreams is also ok! what most important is have you help others to reach their dreams?
helping others is always better than helping yourself. you will never be contented even if you have reach your dreams, you always desired more and become greedy later on.
i always wanted to conquer the world... but do i have the means to do that? no! but i can help others to conquer churchcamp! thou not sponsoring fully, but to just even loan, is good enough! unless i super rich, then i will sponsor la... but not the case now la... haha...
at times, i felt so unless when i have to struggle finishing up this stupid degree course, which somehow is the hardest to pass in singapore... don't know why also...
how i wish i had finish my basic degree and stop thinking of even studying again... studying is such a pain and waste of my $ as i don't even want to work for others, so i don't know why i spend so much on this.
but because singapore is a competitive country, i simply need that cert! so i have to mug for 3yrs just to get this cert! it better be worth it man... wasted my youth! haha
i think i kinda of go way off my topic, but i dont care la... i am the only one reading, plus some faithful readers who dont understand what i blog about. lol...
okay, but to the topic... just wanna share that, at times, when i felt no direction thoughts in life, and as i was driving, somehow i always came out with this imaginative image that i drove in top speed and just whack the car infront. no brake no anything, just crash into it! hahaha... sounds crazy right? becoz of these kinda of thoughts! God allow me to doze off and hit 2 cars infront! damn! this kind of imaginative thoughts woke me up man! cannot think so negative in life la. we need to be positive and always be thankful for everything in life that god had provided us la.
we need to be overcomers! transformers! and faithfulers! hahaha what a word! be faithful in what you believe, be tough in overcoming obstacles, and transform into robotcop! that nothing in your way can stop you from doing what is God's plan for you!
if God wants to remove your things, it's just in a second! nothing can stop him! coz he knows whats best for you... so be thankful! thou it hurts at times, but he remove things that will hurt you even worst in future!
trust me... he remove some stuff from me, and only a few years later, that i relies that it's a worth of a little wept, then a constructive disaster for me in future!
bad things have to go, for rooms for the good things... if old dont go, how to install new! we upgrades all the time for IT, now we have windows 7... even apple can turn to green from red! whats new man...
i typing this in SIM now... i shld have a deal from this guy, but after he fill up the address, dunno where he go... idiot one lo, bluff my feelings... hahaa... but nvm la, i m quite shocked that i can see a few not so bad babes around in weekdays of SIM! hahhaaha... rocks!
life being a single is so cool! with no worries, no need to spend so much, and hardly have a tight schedule... but still... i m getting old... so better start finding my heart back... it was lost a few years ago... lol...
Listing of types-
Age (hmm... not too young la, i cannot wait so long)
height (if taller than me,then i need to wear mask everyday liao)
weight (if fatter than me, i will be crashed!, and i cant carry!)
face (i dont wanna wake up and see ghost next to me)
character (cannot be too tough, or too weak, time to be girl be a girl! then time to be abit man then please be!)must be faithful la, too wild(i cant handle)
example... good question... i dont know! lol
this post is super way off topic... i shall end here and read it.
-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-
(like and love is overrated, but what's best is god's plan!)
Nelvin Blogged @ 12:28 PM
Saturday, October 03, 2009
-Words are powerful, even when you don't know it is.-
Until last night, or rather this morning... i just found out something that i should have understood for the past few years... words are powerful, directly or indirectly, it's harsh or it's soft, concern, or over concern... it doesn't matter... it's the tone, the words used, and the timing, as well as the other party who is receiving the words, and how they interpret those words, usually leads to many misunderstanding, many assumption, many misconception. all these words can turn out good, or turn out bad, it will depends on individual people, and individual maturity.
well... few years back, maybe close to 8years or 9, i indirectly mention this word to someone about 9-10years old, "why you cut like a mop?", just a simple maybe jokingly or not, i don't remember... made an impact on this person, not talking for 3years... imagine that... powerful not?
then about 4years back... i said something harsh on another person regards to bgr advise, and end up... even words can't explain...
does words really hurts? yes it does... therefore i understand the pain in it. how to mend those? one have to give-in, and it takes lots of courage to even send a simple message across, not knowing if you will ever get a reply or not... but it doesn't matter, all you need is to take the first step. even if, it's not totally your fault, and it's party both at fault. but, it takes 2 hands to clap to mend this friendship.
you may sometimes be impacted by words that hurts your pride, your ego, your emotional, but that's life. when hurts are too hurting, it always good to solve it. and not escape it. i escape quite often, and ended up even more sad, sometimes its good to bring out this hurt and solve it.
God want all of us to love... love not only ourselves, but everyone! thou it's the hardest, therefore it's the most important.
love to forgive even it's hard to forgive.
i super hate my second gf. and i always wanted to bash that bastard who came into the picture (if ever he dares to appear in my presence), i will still bash him no matter what. just to relief my anger... but God doesn't approve it, because God didn't allow that bastard to appear in my presence... haha...
but how? God ask me to forgive my ex. FORGIVE le, it's so hard!!! but do i have a choice? NO! if i want to have God's blessing... I need to forgive the one who hurts me the most... who stabbed me until sibei jialat... you know? SIBEI JIALAT!
i don't know why am i posting this... maybe too many misunderstanding that needed to be solve la. so i share my feelings and stand.
but one thing i know i will never say. that word is "sorry" if i am not totally in the wrong. this word had been overrated, overused and not effective at all.
i had my stand, and beliefs. therefore i know i will offend many people. but guess what? that's me. you want the true me as a friend, i will rebuke you if you're wrong, if you're mislead, or you're heading the wrong direction. it's whether you want to trust me, or not. and usually, if i rebuke you, is i care for you. my ways may be harsh at times, or very offensive. but if you trust me, trust me. i mean well, never harm.
anyway, i think i go out of topic already, going too far, ha.
okay, just to conclude... people, when you care for someone, please use nicer words when you rebuke others. as words can be very dangerous at times. i mention 2 experiences of harsh words on 2 people that i care for. so, it's time for me to learn to control and not to be impulsive in giving comments! ha. therefore, lets learn to listen more, understand more, before giving advise. but when it's really time that you need to rebuke on impulse, don't drag so long to ask for forgiveness... it's quite hard to heal things that is drag so long.
i know that. let God heal...
enjoy!
God bless people...
moonlighting!!!
Nelvin Blogged @ 2:19 PM
