having heat stroke i think... headache sia... damn pain... i dunno y le... so funny... on friday nite... i seldom tok to people that nite... juz dun feel like chating with anyone i not close with... haha... i even reject ppl to sit my table... saying its private function... bad huh... i dun think so...
didnt even want to tok to her that nite... but was surprise that she say me b4 she leave... say i look like ah pei... leg on chair or something lydat... then wat one hand holding hp n tok... haha... watever la...
i also dunno wat happen to me la... maybe becuz getting a job is hunting me like siao now... that alot of things i reali cant be bother to noe... reali cant be bother... i sometimes tot of asking the lord to take me Home when i m ready... coz i reali reali left no strenght to keep fighting le... now head so pain yet i still type this...
i wonder whats me purpose on earth... everything seems not right... ppl say me when i react this way... dun forgetting being accused of me doing my own way... during a game today... wat i can say is... when i play a game... i play for the team... the team might not appreciate my effort... but i noe how i play the game... if i reali want it my way... i can say is... I WUN even play... coz i noe... ppl sure dun like my style of playing... yesh... the person did say sorry after he maked a mistake... of tot i was doing my own way... i can say... i hav to forgive him... but deep down... there will left an impression to others that... wat i do is for myself... m i? i dun think so lo... i usually think succes is we... failure I... i noe i m failure to lead the team to win... but if u think i play for my own self... then i guess... PLS DUN PUT ME play again... i dun like to put in so much effort in winning something n end up being say by ppl... i hate that... i reali do... coz i felt... USED...
GOD... pls take me home when i m ready... i reali dunno y i m here now... facing so much negativeness in life... issit becoz things doesnt go my way... i m disappointed? i dunno... it could me... i felt useless now... reali useless n helpless now... i cant take it anymore... anymore pain, disappointment and misuse in life... if i could turn the clock... i hope i turn it fast... to the day i m home with u...
aiya... sian... head still pain... i end here... duno wat to type le
Nelvin Blogged @ 11:09 PM
