~When Boy Meets Girl~
having to get back my this beloved book of mine... this time round when i read, i discovered many things in my life which i hadnt when the first time i read... and thus far, i going to set revision myself, my vision, and my entire lifestyle in the way God planned for me...
i'm not going to let things that i desirer to draw me away from serving the almighty God, and i wanna set things right, not by my own strenght, but by God laying his hands upon my life...
seeing ppl around me, getting into different kind of problems, situation, seeing myself falling apart, going thru tough times, and after, reading thru my own devotion, i found out, many things starts to show what God has done in my life, thru G12 lessons, Sunday's services, HOF, and many other ways that God is trying to tell me, hey nELVin, r U AWAKE NOW? i replied:' yah?' oh man... i wasnt right with him... i m not yeaning for him, NO... its gonna end... i going to get right, and RIGHT NOW iT MUST... yupz... these few days, i been reading more of God's words, preparing myself for Korea... and i wanna hav the right heart, right attitude, right mind, right self... to go... so i wun waste this trip...
i know i cant depend on myself... i need to depend on God... and God is going to use me thru this coming trip... and using me to bless others when i m blessed...
i also recently applied this job... in tp girls' home... u may think its crazy, Nelvin... counselling girls with problems? hello... i not sure about myself, but i see another vision in my life... wat if, if i realli got the job... God can use me in this area? and i can even lead them to God? who Knows... i can easily chat up with ah lians... coz i m brought up those ways in the past? WHo KNOW? i DUNNo... God knows... if its his will, he will open the door... and when he do, m i ready for just a task? Hopefully YEsh... i Must... coz Its HIs PlAn, for me to serve...others... YAh? i thinking too far... but i know, if its his plan, it will come to past... and if its not... i wun treat it as failure, but a experiment in applying a Job of his plan...
well... another thing... i read about Marriage... m i thinking too far and too much for such plan in my life? m i ready to support a family? to lead the women in my life? to serve spiritually and to be able to glory God in my courtship days? M i ? i dunno...
for now... God doesnt want me to take marriage as idol over him... he wants me to serve him with all my heart n soul... so i should just focuz on Him and him alone... serving him and serving others... like be more serious in my ministry... my members in g12... and yesh, i thank God for being double certified... but its not going to stop there... we going further... and with God, we can...
yah...
-ichoseyourways,iletotherdesiresgo,-
-iwannajustfocusondoingyourwayandonlyyourway-
-LORD,myGOd...Bewithme-