Tuesday, November 29, 2005
-I ThINk I Love You-
Nelvin Blogged @ 11:19 PM
Saturday, November 26, 2005
-Love Me, Hate Me-
FULL HOUSE!!! SONG HUI QIAO!!! COol girl in the drama lo, i simply like the charactor... but TOO BAD... Singapore got no such person... SO SAD... HAHA...
well... i m sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick of being a part of an organisation who, shldnt say much...
WElL... Love me, Or HATE ME for who i am... i try to want to get involve... but it juz SO HARD for me to do it... coz I juz Dont FEEL comfortable...
i reali reali want to be part of it, but I juz CANT... i got easily pissed off by their style of doing things... so, PLS... Dont FORCE ME!!!
i juz cant work with you GUYs... it's not sports... Sports can easily Blend... but this, it's so HARD FOR ME...
Every time lydat... I reali dont wanna pressure myself... i'm juz SICk and tired...
i dont blame anyone... but myself... coz it's onli Me that feels this way... not first time... i juz DOnt LIke... so DONT FORCE ME...
i am someone who doesnt always make the first move, when such stuff comes along... but other stuff, u can see me always wanting to do... but this kinda stuff, i not good in, i WOULDNT do... coz i noe i will Killed myself by doing it...
i dunno whether u guys still reading, but dun worry... i trust God... they want say me, i let them say... coz i know i had contribute alot this whole year alot... so the last race, i will juz wait for instruction...
and i going to be very busy soon... so... i wouldnt hav time anyway...
if you want me to chose between, winning my gd fren back to Christ or busy doing some dunno wat kind of meeting, i will chose my gd fren salvation...
SOULS is more important than meetings...
SORRY TO SAY THAT... coz i had enuff...
i always kanna when things goes wrong... so... BLEAHZ...
-LOVE ME or HATE ME-
and reali... i cant be bothered...
as long as i know, i wanna be used by him in soul winning... and be close to him... tats all i care... i wun be bothered abt pleasing MAN... so... yah... GET A LIFE...
and if the one i care dun care me, i will let go... coz i noe HE will provide and preserve someone there for me...
-BLEAHZ-
and working life now is very stressful for me... so dont piss me off... i cant control, u DIE... i say before it happens... so Be tactful in ur words...
yah...
i'm a man, learning to be better, but i not perfect, i might do wrong...
Pray with me... May God Use my weakness to serve him better... coz it's his GLORY...
Nelvin Blogged @ 1:25 AM
Saturday, November 19, 2005
-thEPOWEROFAGREEMEnt-
when u agree with what God had planned for ur life... things will COME TO PASS... and it's reali amazing lo... reali... i dunno how to say... but IT HAPPENS... in front of my very eyes... and witness by alan... reali... GOd is reali reali... putting all things possible in my life right now...
i am so guilty for failing him at time... coz i m so impatence... i m rush, i m easily angry... ah... mani mani more... GOD... FORGIVE ME!!! i know when i reali leave every thing to you... u always show me the answer!!! at ur right time!!!... GOd!!! THANK YOU!!! not easy but u can pull me thru!!!!
THANKS!
today PosioN BALL WAS FUn! haha... it helps me to observe both my direction and helps me to feel ... u noe feeling the ball coming ur way, and picture it the direction... i dunno... it reali help me to aiya... dunno how to say... i always base on feelings, and it reali helped me alot... haha... but kinda cool game... haha... endurance, tactis, picturing, and knowing... haha... but thank God... we did well todae... everyone is so On todae... hehe...
well... i having a headache now... must be nv watch my mouth... tok too big todae... haha... juz becoz i like my performances todae... haha... sorry People if i offended anyone... i m juz crazy todae...i reali crazy... must be some reason behind it...
wanna noE? better not... i not going to feel good for the next few days... haha... lalalalalalalalalala.... anyway...
looking forward to start my new job... thank God for providing... i ask that he will use me, help me, and be with me thru this new beginning...
-THANKS FOR PRAYERS PEOPLE-
Nelvin Blogged @ 11:01 PM
Thursday, November 17, 2005
-God had Blessed Me-
I Thank GOd I foUNd a Job... duo i going to be under training la... and i pray that he will help me... He placed me there, i pray that he see me thru, using me to help others thru this job... Yupz...
looking forward to start this job and pray that things will flow into places soon... isnt going to be easy but i ask for strenght to carry on...
yupz...
dunno wat to say liao...
THANKS!
Nelvin Blogged @ 9:47 PM
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
-Soon i gotten hav no strenght to carry on-
i hav been wandering for 7mths and i getting sick and tired of this routine... not going to be easy but God will pull me thru... i hav frens and loves one praying for me... THANKS... i can make it!
yah even duo sunday was sweet but neveraless, i wun be drawn away for the sweet moments... haha... if not, the more i hope, the deeper i fall... not going to be that way again... i will juz pray for Doors to be open and walk his ways... not on my own, he will guide me... HAHA...
I juz want a JOB! now... i reali going to be year end liao, HOW TO GO FOR PLAN B IF I GOT NO JOB! I WANT A JOB! been stuck at PLAN A FOR SO LONG! WHHAAHHAHAHAhA... CRAP...
i SHALL NOT BLOG MORE... EYES ARE WATCHING !!! KPOS! LOL
-Sweetdreams,dream,dream,dream-
Nelvin Blogged @ 11:32 PM
Saturday, November 12, 2005
-God works in an amazing way-
WOW... kinda excited abt what i going to share... God really Amazing! he do things which no one could ever expect to be... first it was after HOf last nite, when i got home... this g12 member of mine, has brought a fren, then i played with her an online game la... is like a race to 5... gUess wat... I WOn! and she HAS to COme HOf Again! haha thats the prize Of it... and is like, last time, i keep occasionlly ask and invite her to come, but wasnt successful... so did my member trying to ask her... but somehow, cant... BUt Is Like... JuZ a GAMe... SHe HAs to COMe AgaIN! lol... COOL... huh... tats Not AlL...
NexT today WHen east meeT West... WOW... i was Like Losing 4-1 in Tennis Man's doUBle... and I got PAnick... i ask God for MErCY... at least Dun LOse Until so Jialat... and HE is so Mercyful! He even turn the GAme ArOund... it was lIke, AmaZINg... lo... me and my teamate was trying not to do silly mistake and suddenly our opponent start doing mistake, and somehOw We Manage to Win the next 5 game...!!! and it was so Unbelieving... imagine not losing a game after 4-1 DOwn... it was SO... WOW... i reali ThanK GOD for it man... coz it was like, no matter how pro a man can be, they wun be so straight all the time de... i reali cant imagine it... but reali thank HIm for the mercy!
then Next was the game of rounders... WAH... for the first 3 inning, We LOst... and it was like, we juz try to minimise the points different lo... But SOme How... on the 4th inning, God HelP Us to WIn... and it's become the turning point for our last game... We Field (in a way la, more experiences players) then... THANK GOD! we manage to get everyone back... and God anioted one of them to catch the BaLL IN The AIR! it was Like... WOW.!!! coz the Person batting was an experience PLayer TOo... and it was LikE SO uNBelieving aND SHOck For MOst oF US! i was Rejoicing duo... But it was still unbelieving... coz by our strenght is impossible... OnlI GOd can Do such MiracLEs Lo... and overall duo we onli win 2 innings out of 5... we manage to Win the overall total points... is likE... WOW...
and lastly for WoMen's Basket... imagine our team are all Not BASketbALL players... BUt at the last moment... God Helped them to turn the table round by juz 2 points... IS SO UnbeliviNG!!! waT AN ENDing for a POOr start today! our strenght today is very poor, coz most ppl hav O level's and A's then alot ppl also nv come... and most of us hav to play 2 sports and lack of Girls... they hav to play full game lo... Poor them... But God reali good to us... duo we didnt do well for man's basketball... but it was like... those few games i mention, we were like losing lo... until the last moment or minute... it is reali his MeRCy lo...
then I had family Dinner la... Was my DAd's bdae... HaPPy bIRTHdAY DAD! hehe... was like so long we didnt hav dinner together lo... somehow a small gift from 3 of us, which my mum hav to tell us wat to do... then it reali Brighten My dAD's day after his hard work at work todae... REali nicE to See hiM sMIle, and even TAlk with us... realI nIce... GOd is GOod to my family! reali... WithOut HIm in our lives... i dunno how this family had gone to man... I juz PRay that One day both of my parents will Come to hav relationship with HIm... PEopLe who read this bLog... PLS PRAY FOR MY FAMILy! THANKS... hehe...
then after that... i came home and bath lo... then i come out... i saw an sms... hehe guess what? HAHA... duo it wasnt suppose for me la... but somehow i was asked to go along... AND YESH! I AGREE! without any thought~ lol...
-lOOkingforwardtml-
-GODISAMAZING-
-abrightnewbeginning-
-whenweobeyGod,HeBLEsS-
-soSWEET-
-ThANKGOD-
-nitePeoPle-
Nelvin Blogged @ 9:38 PM
-A LEssOn to LEArn-
-its TIme We LEArn to ShuT Up-
i'm getting sick of gossiping abt whats so untruth and whats so truth abt ppl... coz ultimately ppl gossip abt u too... and what they gossip is what they see with their stuPid Eyes of them... Which KInda bLInded By Gum on their Eyes... they see with bLur vision, and thinK they So SMArt and start tAlkIng abt them behind the back... and try to ASK Me abt it, then WheN i turn and ASk Who say One, then Ka siao point direction that u ThiNk i Bornt Yesterdae Or 3 DAys Old BAby... come on...
God Give me BRain To Think, ANd My BRain RuNs wHEn i m listening, If You Know my charactor, i m quiet by nature, coz i Listen... i listen and study ur personality, and occasionly, by God's wisdom, i understand ur being... i not say i m what, but he give me brain to think ... and analysising is my strongest subject in school... thanks to subject called, Marketing and ECONs...
if u ever see my project on Business Plan... i think u will call me crazy lo... coz my project is abt the world largest cruise business which the cruise go around the world in 6mths and covering almost most of the ports in the world... crazy enuff? and guess how much the price of each Trip... Up to 1million! for a room on the cruis for 6mths... haha... very crap la my project... but it can be done... coz of who my financial investor on earth is... thats a project... so dun compare... haha
but well... and i got a Distinction for it lo... thank God for giving me brains to think and go wild in imagination... ahha...
so... U WanT GOSSIP ABOUT ME, make sure u dun ask me or hint me... coz when i find out, I pray that GOD DEAL WITH YOU! coz if i do it myself, i might land u in hospital... so BEWare WHo u tok about...
I myself trying to learn how to tok tactfully, not to mention try not to gossip too... i m learning... if i want to tok, i tok abt myself, or who i tok with i share abt my story... coz Pastor say before... must be transparent abt ur life... then u can grow too... yah... i believe that... so i try to share abt how i feel when i was a young christian and how many times i fail and fall...
yah... so, lets all learn to watch our mouth... our tongue is so strong that can stumble weaker christian than us... so if we dun want get stumble ourself, lets dun stumble others too... u nv noe who is watching u... coz u think everything is hiden? NO... God is wATching...
-enuff4todaycontinuetml-
-timeforminesweeperchalleng-
Nelvin Blogged @ 12:39 AM
Thursday, November 10, 2005
-I GoT a NEW PHONE-
wooo... duo it wasnt the phone i always wanted... while i m contented... duo i try so hard to figure how to use it last nite... i m still contented... haha... coz now... i can... PLAY WITH THE PHONE! lol...
what do u mean by play?
FOR ME TO KNOW, FOR YOU TO FIND OUT!
WHAHAHhaahahHAHhaAHahHAhHAAHhAhAhaha
i'm CRAZY... YEAH
I HAV 4 CRAzY FAITH FREn!!!
=P
shuo bu shang wei shen me
wo bian de hen zhu dong
re ai shang yi ge ren
shen me dou hui zhi de qu zuo
wo xiang da sheng shun bu
dui ni yi yi bu she
lian ge bi ling ju dou cai dao wo xian zai de gan shao
he bian de feng, zai chui zhe tou fa, piao dong
qian zhe ni de shou, yi zhen mo ming gan dong
wo xiang dai ni hui wo de wai po jiayi qi,
kan zhe ri luo, yi zhi dao wo men dou shui jiao
wo xiang jiu zhe yang qian zhe ni de shou bu fang kai
ai neng bu neng gou yung yuan dan chun mei you bei ai
wo, xiang dai ni qi dan che
wo, xiang he ni kan bang qiu
xiang zhe yang mei dan you chang zhe ge yi zhi zou
wo xiang jiu zhe yang qian zhe ni de shou be fang kai
ai ke bu ke yi jian jian dan dan mei you shang hai
ni, kao zhe wo de jian pang
ni, zai wo xiong kou shui jiao
xiang zhe yang de sheng huo wo ai ni, ni ai wo
xiang......jian jian dan dan ai.......
xiang......jian jian dan dan ai.......
whahahhahahahha
i m crazy
yeah!
alalalalallalala
Nelvin Blogged @ 1:10 PM
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
-Introduction-
today in office, i hav been thinking alot, i remember many things many moments in my life that reflected how much i had changed, learnt and been thru ups and downs and almost being kiLled by an accident... i thank God for saving me that day, that moment... and by his grace, i'm still alive... for a purpose...
wanting to write a full story abt myself... the trials moments of hardest time in life, being a christian and not being one, when i was young, to being a so called yet grown up now... wah... very alot sia ...
even liking someone, getting involves in bgr, breaking ups, sad times, got lead on by, cheated and etc... backstabbed by good frens best frens, army mates,... wats more... church frens! the list goes on...
when i m cold with God, my frens left me aside, they enjoying themselve while kicking me aside... we r all young, young at age, young with God... so i understand why they r so heartless, coz we r young... we r not sensitive... so we dun understand... we still frens, stronger as ever... coz all of us go thru tough times... My kaikis from 1983... u all still the best! but for those away from God, i pray that u come back !
many things in my life i dunno how to begin... ppl like to see me on surface, i can say, on surface i dun show i care, coz it doesnt show on my face... but if i do care abt u, u will sense it, i believe... i'm still learning... sometimes i might over do it, but if u not comfortable... i can back off de... coz i dun want ppl to feel uncomfortable... when i care, i care... and when i dun care... tats it... haha...
i still learning to hav christ-like attitude... but it take time... coz i not him, i cant do it... by my own... but with God... he give me strenght
i dunno wat i trying to say la but soon. i will write from the start... each occasion wat happen...
and today i visit vir vir with alan... haha she look so cute with her turban... get well soon!
sian... dunno wat to say
end here...
-_-
Nelvin Blogged @ 10:55 PM
Sunday, November 06, 2005
-God is moving Singapore-
today when russell evans preach the word of God in our church, it realli fills many of our hearts with the burden of reaching the yishun community... we are placed here for a purpose and the purpose for us is to reach out! yah!
hmm... i dunno how m i going to type wat is flowing in these days... God is reali moving us...
from friday to sunday... God is so good!
and he is always good yesterdae today and tomolo and forever~!
yeah!
today... when i was on my way to church was like a dream come true... 10mins of sweet moments was juz good enuff to kick off a brand new day... when u least expected, he always open the door like, no body can stop... juz imagine if i went earlier or i walk slower, will that happen on my own? NO... is reali GOd! hehe and i enjoy his plan for me... lalala
dinner was good too... haha, thank God i was thinking, if not i will sure kanna blasted at... lol... i m juz listening one side over the conversation... and reali, if i would hav blasted out, i would say... haha... nvm... for me to noe can le...
was disturbing chocolatechip in the coach on the way to church, nothing to do? BAKE! i m hungry! lol... long time nv chat with her like tat le... coz she always busy dunno doing what sia... haha... hope to chat with u often la... yah but first, fill the stomach! hehe
i also disturb pInKy after my lunch before my meeting, hehe and she good lo, disturb me back... haha... coz... hahahahahahaah... well, u noe i noe can le... others... read and juz imagine ba! lol
and to my big little Ng eh, StuDY hard and all the best tml! my prayers will be with u tml! n God will see u thru!
and also to my BrOThers all the best in ur Os too, also to 2min's, EsTh,jamie,Eelen,jack,MoK,akim?brenda, who else huh, juz everyone la... HAHa...
and to mY VP, Vp's bf, My Best neighbour, for uR A's~!
yah...
yesterdae played tennis, wasnt that good but still win overall la... not so bad lo.. haha... did alot mistake... yah thanks Mid for her racket and also someone for her racket too...also thanks Vir for bringing... and
i hAd DINner with alan my bro and vir Vir... aha... was a unusal group but was very meaningful la.. hehe... and somehow i felt a strong presence nearby the area... and guess wat... she was nearby juz that i dunno onli... haha
we tok alot sia...4 of us, drink tea and etc... hehe... not bad fellowship... will hav more! yah... and u want noe wat we tok, hehe... ask Vir lo...
anyway... MOk u still owe me a dance!
wat else... i also abit stml... see... all ngs the same hahaha...
or becoz my job is so boring... lol
-irealipraythatgodwillprovideajobformesoon-
-andpraythatthistueswillbeasuccessformylittleng-
-andGodwillcontinuetohelpme-
-believethathispromisewillcomesoon-
-andmedoinghisworkwithmysincereheart-
-andmyfrenswhohadfallenwillpickthemselveupagain-
-formyfrensicare-
-trustthelordthyGodandhewillsetufree-
-hesetmefreecozibelieve-
-hewillsetufreewhenubelieve-
-openurheartmyfren-
-andbesetfree!-
-Godhealcoconutandgivehimspeedyrecovery-
-gone-
-LOveYouGOd-
Nelvin Blogged @ 8:33 PM
Thursday, November 03, 2005
-SKY HIGH-
haha... was overall a nice movie, interesting at some parts of the movie la..., what i like abt it is not the power they hav or wat, but the way they match the kids... hehe
One boy got the ability of Fire, and the Gal hav ability of ICe, so when they hold hands, its warm and cool... so nice... haha... but then, i not encouraging u all to hand each other hand hor, what it trying to protray is that, for my thinking is how wonder it would be, but then, it's the most lovely will be Having God's plan in us la... so dont any how any how hor...
but the lead actress was cute i could say for her age... haha... but show is a show, who noes how she would be like... but after all, it doesnt matter... haha
i had a tough morning due to work, got complaint by a customer... haha... wat a (_) that customer could be... but watever,
then had a short fellowship with some leaders at starbucks... but i was too tired...
anyway...
-imakesomeonedaytodayihope-
-ibelieveit'shimwhowantmetodo-
-cozit'sjuzasmallthingla-
-i'mwatching-
Nelvin Blogged @ 10:53 PM
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
-BGR-
it had been repeating causing most ppl down fall in their spiritual walk with God... why? coz man dont listen! they didnt place God in their centre of life. they always do their ways and didnt listen to God's timing... always keep creating their own chances, and forcing their way into a bgr... and whats going to happen next if things doesnt work out? hurt, giving up wat u work hard for, and blah blah blah...
its not easy i know... i been thru... from non-christian to being a christian-, loneliness make me so in love when someone passes by... yah after all we all human... i noe...
after all i been thru tough lesson yet i didnt learn... i keep falling into it... i been wanting my ways, and end up, nothing happens... i reali reali sometimes got tired of going thru... seeing others having their lovely life, will make me envy at times... i noe... for young ppl i must say... i noe what u are going thru, coz i been thru...
i didnt reali get into what a bgr reali is until one big part of my life was affected by it... and it was one of my biggest fall of my christian walk... when all my frens didnt even bother abt me whether i wasnt going back to church anot... but i thank God for bringing a youth leader at my time to call me, and share with me... and thats was one of my turning point in life that i want to come back strong...
but trials come and come when u decided to be stronger for God... and slowly slowly mistakes comes again... reali this walk isnt easy but always hav to focuz on God then he help u overcome each trials...
it's not how many camps u go, how many mission trip u go... its ur relationship with God and God alone... if u can handle wat God gives u well, he will not stop giving u, he will increase, and it always take time. be patient to recieve, dont rush into it or anything... if God give u someone, cherish her, cherish him, dont play hard to get, coz if u keep thinking u are the prize to be achieve, erm... i m sorry, coz u'r not... u r a gift provided by God... so when God give, u obey... u dont think highly of urself, coz man hav short concentration lifespan... once he dont hav the respond he wants from man, he move on...
yah i m juz saying my point of view la... u may not agree with me... but i always believe, God want u to wait for the best... and the best is always worth waiting...
i always make rush mistake before, and i pray that i wun make again... coz it wun be fair, in past, its always easy to go for the shortest cut, but i believe right now is, the Best is worth waiting for... so i wun rush things now, until God give me a green light... so God... i trust in u for everything... u open doors each time when i least expected and its always a surprise and sweet moments u created... so People, Believe what God's best for you... if u do things on ur own record, u may find fun, but it doesnt last sweet... haha...
-choseGod'sbestforyou-
-KissingDatingGoodBye-
-aWifeWorthWaitingFor-
-_-
Nelvin Blogged @ 10:24 PM
POTBLESS
was fun at doyle's hse... gather with most of the leaders... and we eat n eat n eat... and play animals game and bomb ti ti ti... haha i juz manage to get twice forfeited but is alright... but i guess the forfeit for eating realli kills some of them... haha...
and i was having fun saboing those ppl ... making them blUR... haha... and of coz... i was having fun saboing... haha... well too bad la...
today work quite boring la... but then ok la... aiya i dunno la
go prata had fellowship not bad... also had fellowship at PS... not bad also...
hehe... overall OK la... GOOd day...
i left 5hrs to slpt... later work sure die again... haha
-nite-
-daybyday-
-ifalldeeper-
-God!plsplsplsplspls-
-providemeagoodjob-
-thanKS-
Nelvin Blogged @ 12:24 AM
