-To: MMong-

i dunno when u felt that way about the situation you are in right now... u might not even read this blog, i juz wanna share some things with you. and hope u understand what i m trying to say.

sometimes, being in a group takes a very big effort to be with. if u dun share out wats wrong with it, u cant able to know whats going on. sometimes, it takes juz a little more effort in making things works...

if ur frens dun call u, u call them... its hav to be 2 ways... 2 hands to clap... my dear, sometimes, u need to open alittle bit more... u r part of them, u always be part of them... no one and no body can pull ur presences u had place in them...

often, such outings is so last minute... and when u r busy with other stuff, how to blend everything well together? a little more effort...

i m not saying u or wat... i juz wanna let u know... we didnt forsake u... u juz hav to find a balance in ur values of frens... who u put first...

tats a BIG question u hav to take...

Church Frens or Outside Frens...

who u value more...

if u think others are more happening and interesting... u will find them more fun... but if u think Church frens after going so much thick and thin, and u think we didnt value u, u r abit not fair to them...

after all, no man are prefect... they dont always take the first move... they are forgetful ppl. they... juz not prefect...

we cant always do the first move... sometimes... u hav to make an effort...

lets be fair to each other...

can?

and i reali hope u could come...

i reali do...

u may hav ur plans...

but...

its who u value...

-another day-

Today went to take Rich driving license...

then watch a movie with the rest...

then go hof...

then Chocolatechip gave me the present...

i m the sheep...

haha...

thanks...

ur's is coming up...

I promise...

today...

pastor shared a powerful message...

how...

m i ready to go back?

i'm not sure...

today meeting was a flop...

thanks everyone...

tml we had scolding again...

THANKS AGAIN...

i dun wan say who la...

disappointed in those...

anyway...

then...

heard she is Sick...

i dunno shld i or shld i not...

i cant let this thing hinder me now...

ARGh...

currenlty listening to FULL HSE song again...

duo i dunno korean...

but the song is so saddening...

n it make me melted...

argh...

oh yah i forgot...

today so nice to hav HJ n ML treat us dinner...

thanks...

i cant wait to work along with HJ...

provided she willing to take the step...

oh well...

i dunno...

today i sms LLong abt wat i see...

i dunno u understand wat i mean not...

but i hope u do noe wat u doing...

i dun wish u be like WH...

sometimes, u juz cant put fun in front of anything else...

image is important...

and now for MMong...

i dunno what happen to u or wat u facing currently...

i juz dunno how m i going to start a conversation with u...

i m facing a struggle in my life...

maybe tats hinder me to tok to u at times...

coz u seems to be so busy...

even abt tml stuff...

not i didnt ask u...

coz i suppose to say tonite at hof...

coz i be giving out invitation cards...

but that eddy nv turn up...

n the rest who noes is those who hang out with me these few days...

alot ppl is last minute then noe...

i reali hope u could come...

anyway...

wat m i trying to say...

ARgh...

so many things...

so many differences...

so confusing...

who m i?

-White Spec-

wah... today was irriating...

A Freak wearing white spec...

or rather 2 freaks...

one b4 going sentosa saw one...

one after coming out of sentosa...

both got the Kiam Pai face...

too bad...

i dun hav the chance to give them a Punch...

reali...

cant stand the specs...

WHITE FRAME...

ARgh!

if i alone felt that, then is me la...

but the rest also felt that...

so is that freak le...

wasted...

that freak nv come over my side of the beach...

if not...

hehe...

well...

today was NOT BAD...

got shine red colour le...

jialat...

haha...

well...

did a small celebration for eelen...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY...

and then...

send my little ng home...

wah...

i took bus n walk home...

so fulfilling...

manage to cut from 240 to juz 80cents...

wat an achievement...

it shows that, i dun hav to spend so much and yet can get home...

haha...

come online...

bo lang...

so...

blog awhile...

then can go zzz...

haha...

today kinda weird group...

suddenly...

all so polite...

i felt bad...

coz...

i m bad...

haha...

well...

i could change...

yah...

for a differences...

YEah?

Pray For ME... People...

THANKS...

-out-

-THE STRUGGLE-

The GREAT Battle Had Already Began...

MIND VERSUS HEART...

where Lies, Aches, Sorrow, versus, Love, Joy, Peace...

Wat a BATtlE...

bullets flying across everywhere, shooting birds, planes, flies...

Bombs, Mines, rockets... destroying Buildings, cars, and etc...

man versus Air...

Man versus man...

OH...

teArs, BlOod, sweAT flowing Across the Veins...

cells, oxygen, minerals running thru...

brings help and re-enforcement...

OH HO HO OH...

Bang BAng BAng...

VICTORY?

-to be continue-

-A DAY OUT-

Sentosa today...

was fun... no DOubt abt it...

At least i m High about it...

enjoyable...

stressless...

but...

after prayers...

even after toking it out...

i still...

hav a burden in me...

the heat...

the fire...

the...

tireness...

in me...

i cant help...

giving it up...

everything...

my life...

my... dreams...

my goals...

my...

why...

always...

i hav no good attitude...

no anything...

Like others Do?

i chose to keep things to myself...

tats me...

if i blast it out...

many will end up in hospital...

coz...

i been irriated...

bit by bit...

time after time...

if i was someone 7yrs back...

u hav been dead...

I Reali reali reali SICk of ppl...

who thinks highly of themselves...

reali...

i onli hav one talent...

my talent is to be nice to ppl who r teachable and listens...

tats all...

i m no good in other stuff...

so...

dont try to change me...

u r not GOD...

before u want to tease me...

Get ur facts Rite...

if U assUme...

GET A LIFe...

u r not me...

u dunno what my shoes are...

u cant fit in...

coz my Life isnt urs...

i been thru things u nv been thru in ur life b4...

things i learnt when i m 6,7 u still dunno where to be found...

dun compare...

coz...

it wun do...

-i dunno wat i trying to say-

-i m juz stress-

-i need a break-

-argh-

-out-

-deep inside-

1.23am...

27 Dec 2005...

deep in me...

so confusing...

No Job, No Life, No...

its going to be a year...

and my ippt opening le...

yet... my life still heading nowhere...

my feelings are worst...

so heart breaking...

its not that what had happen or wat...

its juz tat...

i felt so...

helpless...

no words can express the helplessness i m now...

the more i see or say...

the more hurt sad i m...

troubles...

mix...

confusion...

confesion...

excecution...

condemnation...

wat else...

ah...

this christmas duo was quite a victory...

but its still like...

very nowhere...

short term happeniess, laughter isnt wat i looking for...

i looking for something...

someone...

somewhere...

very... special...

its not easy...

gotta Trust in HIm...

ALOT MORE NOW...

I noe i m heading for a big trial...

a turning point...

Nicholas... its not u alone...

I'm with u...

Lets go thru our difficult times...

trusting in HIM...

coz he is REAL...

-out-

-SteamBoat-

it all started with...

meeting ppl to go...

caught in jam...

to mrt...

walk...

reach...

shrek...

ch 56...

laugh...

80s...

ice cream...

chips...

drinks...

walk...

mrt...

stand...

wait...

bus...

sit...

take food...

bbq...

eat...

tok...

discuss...

end...

go united square...

tok...

drink...

listen...

cab...

home...

here i m now...

tml...

brand new day...

-end-

deep inside...

weird...

duo i know...

not easy...

i cant let go...

i share to this young man...

i must practise to...

so how...

its not the first time...

yet...

it's going to be many times...

and i m going to be...

still...

i...

pressing on...

who ask...

me...

to be...

-out-

GOD...

HELP ME...

TO GET A NEW JOB...

THANK YOU...

-out-

-MERRY CHRISTMAS-

-HELLO BOXING DAY-

it's all start with christmas eve morning...

church cleaning...

follow by fellowshipping with pastors...

then rush down to meet vincent...

dennis came... or is a.kim...

buy stuff for bbq...

then raining...

jiamin came... n left...

then 4 of us... rain against the rain with a trolley from cold storage...

haha...

then reach mok palace...

then his mum is so nice to do the chicken for us...

so end up nothing to do...

then slack until 5pm...

vir coming...

me n amina go meet her...

at same time return the stolen trolley... haha...

then i go do some last minute shopping...

got lots of useful books... duo limited...

exchanged a free gift which still with me...

then bought wrapping papers and a gift for piglet...

then go back mok palace...

use mok room to wrap...presents...

then suddenly mok sis came to the room...

tot i m like a small boy same age as mok... or something... treating me like a small boy... but the truth is i same age as her...

haha... so funny...

then BBQ starts...

we hav 2-3 BBQ personnel who likes to do it...

so... i juz wait n eat lo... as usual... haha...

then...

dori wants watch tv...

then we go play a lame chinese show...

but is the lame show that makes us laugh...

and somehow attracts everyone to watch with us...

haha... so unexpected...

and worst... Dori elbow me lo... on my eye...

see how power she could be...

haha...

then BBQ EAT TV ROOTBEER FLOAT and sparking juice...

haha...

not bad la for a christmas eve at a last minute de... lol...

then got home do those last minute writing of cards and etc...

missed out alot ppl... bo bain... i no time go shopping... pls forgive me...

then...

knocked out at 430...

woke up at 830...

MERRY CHRISTMAS...

then prepare go church...

do somemore last minute of cards...

then...

go church...

saw HER...

then...

saw CoCoNuT...

etc...

then saw 2 Ngs... then told them... SorrY EH... BEST tHINGS MUST WAIT...

HAHA...

My darling shai-ann gave me chocolates... so sweet...

haha...

then... lydat lo...

gave twin tower stress...

then... region C meeting...

shOCKING... but expected...

haiz... more meetings again...

be4 leaving church...

was kinda pissed off by HER again...

is my fault la...

but i super tired mah...

then ask me follow that other grp so weird...

so i decided...

FINE...

i go find other ppl instead...

PPl who welcome me...

haha...

was sad la... but then it doesnt matter...

then meet up with all my darlings...

basket...

they shop again...

let me n my poor ngs wait under the SUN...

how could they... haha...

then i'm glad i bought my 2 NGs their stuff...

well...

ok... went lido check out the movie...

guess wat...

saw my VP...

haha... that girl...

tot she lost my present end up is all along in her bag...

how...

mY VP wat...

haha...

well...

had a family dinner...

simple and short...

sweet and slow...

haha...

then meet up with my NGs family and i say family is 5 of them... n 2...

then in movie saw joel n family...

haha...

all watch the same movie...

lol...

yah...

finish movie...

then go home...

so tired...

recieve some presents today...

haha... THKS ALL...

as i m blogging...

well...

SHE sms me...

so...

HAHA...

SWEET DREAMS...

GOOD NITE...

HAPPY BOXING DAY...

-out-

-RETRO-

phew...

finally ended...

ended pretty well...

just above average...

better than christmas 2043 and 3kkk...

phew...

its oVER...

no more...

We EnD it...

Year 2005...

YESh...

Tml CHristmas PARty at Mok hse...

ITs ANOther BAng!...

but first must clean church tml...

and buy food...

not forgeting some and important christmas shopping...

oh no...

never buy anything...

die...

haha...

today got a present...

how sweet...

first christmas gift...

as earli as today...

so unexpected...

so...

wah...

took pic with my future partner in g12...

guess who?...

haha...

i guess...

WAH...

SHE LOOK SO SWEET TODAY...

BUT...

BUT...

I DIDNT TOOK A PIC WITH HER...

HOW...

WASTED...

Kick myself into the door...

and then...

WAH...

mY DOOR...

JUST GONE...

I DESTORY IT...

into Pieces...

MY HARdWoRk...

my ASSistant HARdWoRk...

THey PAINTed...

GONE...

IT's GONE...

mY GOLDEN PLATE...

#09-12...

GONE...

AH SHEN COFFEE SHOP...

GONE...

wah...

today...

everyone did so well...

so...

Nice...

-i'm out-

-the last day before-

open today with...

going to do props...

saw coconut n cs...

then...

do props lo...

headache with the door...

so irriating door...

almost done...

the cross...

break still break...

then...

on our way to...

props...

well...

very hard to say...

coz...

dunno wat to say...

-out-

-i m so tired-

i m losing myself...

no more strenght le...

drying up...

mental fighting...

arguement...

love...

care...

i felt so lost...

i need a break...

i need a good rest...

but it wun do any help...

coz...

the fighting still there...

it wun go...

feel like giving up...

i reali reali reali...

sick n tired of all these craps...

i dunno wat i feeling now...

trying to stay happy...

but i noe deep inside...

i m reali hurted...

bad boy...

will never be good boy...

is it true?

i dunno...

no more Mr. Nice Guy le...

no more...

sick...

Loneliness?

No...

Life is crap...

Not reali...

its how u view it...

i m juz tired to move...

a step back or a step front...

its like a end of road...

a dead end...

a hump...

a...

a life worth living for...

a life worth sharing...

argh...

who M I?

-out-

-Home Christmas-

wah... do wrapping...

but then...

very bad ...

my g12...

dont mention...

then...

got some remarks...

i quite pissed...

but then...

hav to forgive them...

i dun wan to say much...

wanna compare...

think u all work very hard...

then we slack huh...

i dunno wat they think...

but...

quite pissed off...

then worst...

haiz...

nvm...

not a good day anyway...

tml got to go finish my work...

then...

yah...

fri pack...

sat pack...

sun pack...

mon pack...

wah...

i havent buy a thing yet...

write a thing yet...

but spend alot liao...

hai...

now someone's bro on tv...

all the best...

-out-

-a done day-

haha...

did props today with jer n gab...

was on process...

was tough in the beginning to find the wood...

but thank God we found...

then...

go find the gun...

thank God i found...

haha...

most things planned to do was done...

then go meeting...

haha...

nothing lo...

VP was there...

haha...

today later is g12 christmas...

how...

cant find anyone to go...

how...

die...

-out-

-wat a day-

hehe... life still nv been same yet...

morning i was a jerk by sending back a crook remarks...

i felt bad... real bad...

then afternoon had shopping with my little ng...

was great...

found alot of stuff but didnt buy...

haha...

then tok lo...

great day...

then...

i meet one of my twin tower...

then tok abit...

then we go meeting...

then i bought tea for her...

coz i bad this morning mah...

when i enter the meeting place...

She ask issit for her...

Yah... she so clever...

haha...

meeting was going smooth...

yah...

tml prop...

hope go well...

God give us strenght...

Thank You...

-out-

-another sian day-

wah lao... today sian 1.2

got some heated up conversation with her... coz of the event stuff...

very shit...

then got meeting until 7pm...

then go dinner...

got a catching up with one of my twin tower... not bad...

then after dinner, the other twin tower came... then i was quite ok...

haha... boring la...

tml cant wait to go shopping with little ng...

haha...

first time weird combination...

but who cares... i so free...

lol...

sian...

-out-

-DecK the HAlLs-

Today is DeCK the HAlls... Saw manY kids enjOying themselves... so warm Hearted...

but i didnt do much la, coz i still dont hav the mood to do anything...

was so excited when i saw a door, juz nice... but was rejected of the door...

was quite hurted by a remark from her...

yah... i dunno anything, i cant do anything... will that be fine with u?

crap... if they are so talented... they can do everything lo... y put me in charge... when u dun trust me...

i already so down le, yet such remarks was made...

then wat can i do... also cant scold or shout at u... if i did, i will kill myself more...

ARgH!!!

went town with my cousin todae... good catching up...

saw my SIAEC frens in town too...

saw tf too...

on my way home... i felt so lost... so empty... so... lonely...

haizz...

Who can feel the pain... i m facing...

i may appear strong... but i m weak...

GOD... i need u more now...

thks for those who had been so encouraging... thks a lot...

-gone-

-a drop of tears was drop-

-i did it again-

aH! now is 4am, and i not slping... sighz...

just now Little Big Ng came back singapore le, hope she enjoyed herself with her other sis...

well...

wat m i doing here now... i dunno...

felt so empty now...

if i act like nothing happen... i m acting...

deep inside, there is still unhappiness...

coz... wo bu fu...

the crap reason they give, very crap lo... if my cheque got bounce, they will be in deep shit lo...

coconut said, i got alot things not right yet... i know, coz i m falling...

thks to those who r sensitive enuff, n accompany me... thks...

thks to those concern... thks...

thks little ng... thks...

i know she concern, but i guess, i gave poor respond... then she sian.2 ... if not, means, i m nothing la...

sian sian sian sian...

later is deck the hall... my VP put my name... which i tot i msg pastor say i dun wan involve...

but ok la... i promise my g12 member the tkk teacher to help her during supper le...

for u...gd old fren...used to... haha...

juz now pai pool... i won all except dav... dav won all except vincent... n vin won all except me... and nich won all except me... so overall... 2 person nv beat me... hahahahahahhaaha... S LEAGUE RULES... lol...

aiya... dunno do wat now... haha... today zing zong wore my belt... haha maybe juz to make me happy la... thks anyway... i still want my soup! n meatballs... haha...

aiya... sian sian sian...

-i'm out-

-A Day God Humble Me-
-When man Crashed me, i have to stay Stronger-


It started before lunch break, suddenly my old neighbour ask me go behind talk, i found out that i HAD BEEN SACKED, for not blending well into the culture... WTF, its a lousy reason for kicking me out lo, its onli 3 weeks and i work less than 3 weeks coz of church event... and i getting the flow of the job, when they SACK Me... the world is like going down for me todae... but i thank God for people who encouraged me.

Jack was nice to have lunch with me when i reali reali felt so... END... i'm sorry for those who called me and answered my call... if i stumbled u, pls forgive me for my words ... i shldnt hav scolded bad words... but i was very very stunned and pissed off by the reason they gave me...


later i be meeting some of the rest for bowling... I Going to get perfect GAMe... StRIkING alL THE PINS DOWn N SpOIL THem!


ARh... I cant help thinking of that stupid Company WHo SACKED ME FOR Not BLENdINg into the culture... WAT A F reason! ARgh!!!








-hurted deep down-




-GOd I NEED YOUr STREngth-




-I TRiEd to get A FLoW into the Job le...-





-gone-

-Down oN trials-

Wah super testing me lo... n i fail... coz i m so worked up... How... I Dunno... sad... worried... pissed... everything in the mind... tears almost came out... i dunno i reali dunno... tired... dunno...

i doze off during prayers... i was deep in thinking of things... i reali dunno... cant feel a thing... wanted to end this... suffering... yet... thats my calling... to go thru all these... coz... he wants me to walk this way... no pain no GAIn...

haiz...

i super super super tired now...

BYE

-Sweet Moments-

what a day to start...

well... i dunno who planned, or watever la... I juz want to keep the sweet moments...

22nd Birthday... a Day that i enjoy most... not only with frens, family and her... but also knowing new frens who cares too...

well... I Enjoy today... coz... Yupz...

You Got Mail<--- a mail, some words, a lunch, and sweet moments...

i believe its quite clear enough le la... dun wanna express much further...

then after work, played pool with nich, had dinner with nich and little ng... the older ng go hOngkong with her dad and sisters... but we enjoyed our KOREA NIGht... haha... like kanna cheated lydat but still very FULL lo... haha Thanks for the Cake and the Card... So SWEET...

well... go tony place and see them practise... they did a little surprise for another CAke... Thanks... thoughtful of you people... and found out that they planned on sunday but i ciao on sunday... whahaha... Thanks anyway...

well... recieve sms wishes from outta blue ppl, such as, iris and jacq, and also not forgetting my Vp, Zingzong, Piglet, dav, Rich, Big little Ng before she flys, chester, and many more... haha...

and also some unknown ppl... well...

None can compare that what God had done for me in the last one year...

today is the first day of 22nd... and it will began a bright new sight of life...

Can i? Will I? God kNows... He Knew, before i was bornt... his Agenda, is not mine... but i will follow, when he send me...

-Birthday Wish-

1. MY WHOLE FAMILY GET SAVED
2. MY FRENS GET SAVED.
3. HER!

-HaPPy 22nd Birthday to mySELf-

Special Thanks to those who spare their time today to celebrate with me... thanks for your thoughfulness and remember me as a fren... thank you so much...

Special Thanks to Terry,Richard,Tingchun,David and Beehui for the Lunch...

Special Thanks to Alan,Edward,Jieren,Dennis,Jiamin,Rina,Huiyun,my(sis) for the Dinner... and also to eelen and mok who came for awhile... and also Jack for wanting to come yet have to leave earli... Loved the gift! THAnKs

And not forgeting my little Ngs who wished me... and shared with the gifts...

THANKS Alot... and also to Birthday wish from Wenhui,Weisheng,Joanne,My insurance Agent Lee Lee,Xinyi... Thanks for remembering...

also Nicholas who CALLEd when i was out with one of my gd fren for a heart to heart talk... he call and wished me... when he so busy with work now... Thanks~

Lastly not forgetting my Beloved Fellow brother in Christ, CHESTEr! lol... oh yah... Chunseng also wished me... and who else...

and also... My Parents for the usual gifts they always bless us with... THANKS!

Today is the Day... and i hav to go work later... sian1.2 haha... Oh... i forgot my Beloved Fren in Philippine Golda, had wished me too... thanks you for not forgetting me as a fren... haha...

Well... God is Good... i m finally 22... another year had past... it's a new beginning of a new life year again... I want to make use of it! God Use mE!

looking forward to see his plan for me...

yah... if i miss out anyone... i'm sorry...

-too many things happening la... i always lost memory-

-A Moment-

today kinda a moment of silence... went saturation, then heart.sport then go dinner then home...

kinda nothing special...

everything wasnt feeling right todae...

i dunno why...

got hit by the ball hard today, thks to ALAN... HAHA... but it's kinda a wake up call for me la... i hav been going my way, thats y I believe God KnOCk me On MY FACE... was a hit... but seriously, i dun reali feel a thing... i more concern abt my spec than my pain... dunno why...

well... someone apologized to me today... well... i reali dunno wat to say... after so much things happen... it stunned me, but its not me that u hurt... but my little Ng... well... i m glad that everything is over now... but u hav to give me time to heal from wat had happen...

too many stuff had hinder me these few weeks... from work, from retro projects, from problems... i juz need time alone now... its time i get back quiet time with God... too busy with the world le...

had a tok with alan on our way back home... we talk abt our future, our agenda, our dreams... and trusting the Lord for our portion... well... i guess its reali a up and down for me to focus on her... i dont know how did i ever fall for her, but i know if she's the one, i had done many mistake along the way lo... by going the wrong way... i think thats how feelings changes along the time...

there's a long road ahead of me... i juz want to walk along his agenda... ahhh...

wat m i trying to say...

crap...

-ByeBYE-

-The V Day-

hmm... today suppose to be a great day! but but but but... well... i dunno... i felt God had won tons of victory at the 2 services today... yupz... many of us are touched! and we will CHANGE for HIs GLORY!

i suppose to write alot today...

i juz suddenly empty minds now...

during services tot alot of stuff...

now... empty... how come huh?

haha...

ok la...

today... she cried... i felt so helpless... sitting a side and look... cant do anything...

then just listen... and glare lo...

aiya... dun want to blog le...

reali empty now...

-LALALA-

-The Ngs Day-

i am quite happy today... coz not only my 2 little ngs cleared their misunderstanding, they also could stand for one another...~ which make me very proud of them! and also, I saw my DArLing ASHleY NG, so sweet, 3yrs old le... lol... cute... and today mY SHai-ann Darling Gave Me a HUG! A HUG!!!! u know, how warm it can be when all the problems in the world faces you, but a warm hug from a child keeps the JOY Up !!! lol...

HAd a wonderful time today with many stuff to do, and worries, but it all ended quite nicely, except some stuff la... but, i enjoyed my nite out with my GUYS clique, the OLDEN DAYS... when we used to hang out at rzone camp etc... wow... 5yrs le... time flew man... anyway... very tired todae... and now is going to be 3am, and i gotta to be at office at 9am to check mails n rush to 10am service... Oh MAn...

well... ThanKS JIAMin for the Long Sleeve... from BAnGKok... very nice of her, and also rina, who gave me a sweet... HAHA... well... i also want to thk the one who tag in my little NG blog, i noe who u r... coz i recognise the tone of the tag... haha... PROVE ME WRONG... lol...

and yah i not angry la, VP... duo u juz now suan me during meeting, but is ok, coz i wasnt reali bothered by the suanning part, i was in a hurry to go out with my BroTHErs...of 1983s... haha... so dun feel bad... coz i will always cherish u as my VP...

well... thnks piglet for supporting me, i know u care, but i dun think u shld noe wat had happen, coz dun need to make it big, and also thks Chester for reminding me to remain as a testimony and not to stumble ppl...

i noe when i angry, i will blow up... i will endure, but sometimes, it also depend who the party is la... teachable spirit is ok, but u noe, SOME are not teachable la... thats y no point speak so much, once they go overboard, i dunno wat could happen lo... i m always reali to explode... juz waiting for the bad season... 6yrs had past... i wonder could i make a new record of 7yrs... haha...

thks everyone who care, for those who dont, it doesnt matter, coz God nv forsaken me and my frens and family...

U Wanna judge me? by all means... i wun bother... coz i learning to give up my agenda, and follow his agenda, believe anot, i wun care... coz i dun need ur approval... i juz need God's!

:P

and yah... God is GOOd...

-The D DAy-

i kinda disappointed in some ppl right now... i wonder what blinded their eyes to only see or hear what is juz one sided point of view. when i say, she misunderstood wat my little sis wrote... SHE MISUNDERSTOOD!!! if u insist that u want to protect ur so call FREN, by all means... BUT IF U EVER TOUCH MY LITtLE SIS, U WILL be SORRy... i dun care how good u can fight or how spiritual U can be... U DARE To Hurt hEr, u will be Sorry!

Wat Brother Hood can there be, when U insist to Listen one party Side... why do u want to chAP into it when it suppose to be their girls problem... I kNow u CARE ABt Ur fren... BUt Why DId u Judge by saying r u sure she getting right with God? hey... if u R BLinded By LOVe, U shLDNt Even SAy THat!

I kiNDA UPset! at the same time, i very disappointed with my Big Little sis... i guess every one has their point of view... but as long as i m concern abt the way i read the blog... i know what the author is saying coz i communicate with her all this while...

SO IF U READ, AND ASSUME THAT SAYING ABOUT U... then... DONT ASSUME THAT SHE WROTE ABT U, COZ IS NOT U... N IF U INSIST N FIND FAULT... I PRAY THAT GOD DEAL WITH YOU! COZ I KINDA SICK OF THIS CRAP... U CANT READ PROPERLY, DONT MISUNDERSTAND THE WRITER... COZ IS NONE OF YOUR FREAKING BUSINESS TO READ...

I SAY ONE MORE TIME, YOU HURT HER, U WILL BE SORRY! BOth OF YOU! u noe WHO I M TALKING ABOUT OK...

-Mix Feelings-

hmm... wondering why i had hard time sleeping on saturday nite... not becoz i m watching tv... is not... but i finally understand why on sunday... COZ... it's the whole journey until it landed... then i have the peace...

dont understand what i trying to say right? Dont bother... it's to make me remember only... it doesnt concern u... WHAHHAAhHAha... Bleahz...

well... during service, i keep thinking of alot of things la... some good, some bad, some wonderful, some terrible... excited? not realli... somehow... ai mai the feelings starts pourings... wondering... whats the next step gotta be...

it's like, i cant let go most of the stuff in my hand... i like to chap everything into my hands... dealing with it one by one... and even multi tasking lydat... not going to let anyone take away from me... but i was wrong...

God eventually will want me to let go... bit by bit, and trusting him for everything he will lead me to... hehe...

i think i m crazy, but who cares... like it or not, i m the unqiue one...

well...

To My VingVong, never let anything or anyone block you from serving God and that YOU are the best in God creation in being you... others dont cherish, there always be even others cherishing who you are... never be sweep away by surrounding... juz Believe what the Lord had done for You... ok?

To TingTong, thks for the managos, i left 3 packages only... haha... gave and share away the rest... come back safety... looking forward to hit you when you are back again... WHAHAHhahah... this time, PLS... understand the chinese term... hur hur... i going to hunt you for the next new year...!!!

To ZingZong a.k.a ChocolateChip, remember hor, to keep to urself hor... and dont bother about what i had teased you abt... i juz being mean at times... HWHAhah... lets face it... this a new trial for you, u gonna learn to protect urself... ok? dont becoz of wat peer pressure says... believe in God, and wat ur mum teaches u...
AND U STlL OWE mE A CHALLENGE HOR... BOWLING! its DECEMBER LE LO...

wat m i blogging... haha...

i forgot alot of stuff liao... siao liao...

oh yah...

yesterdae meeting till 10+++++++++

was ok lo, except i miss sending TingTong off, which i had promise i wanted... well... wat to do... meeting + () hahaha...

lalala...

dont blog liao... like crap lydat

-I Falling For You-


Been working in this new company for a week now... been scolded for not doing enuff to build up my clients rapport... sighz... its so blessed in the beginning, and now its getting harder each day... God i reali need your help to see me thru, i tot its easy but now, not anymore... yesh i may be bored at work, bored coz not enuff ppl applying the position, even if they r ppl, all not qualify... and i got scolded by clients then... SIgh sigh sigh...

worst... i slowly slowly losing strenght, each day day by day... renewing each week, each day... wasnt enuff... i need more... more of Him... his help, his grace, his mercy and his anointing... upon my life... been lazy to blog coz nothing to blog... always longing to see him day by day...

i m weak you make me strong.!

God... each time i look upon the sky, i tot of... duo i may able to chat... but wasnt anything much... i dunno what i m doing... i reali need u to lead me...

now i also dunno wat i m toking... ARgh...

Full House music was so nice... i now keep listening... going to learn how to sing... WHAHahha...

i m soot... who read this blog even Soot... coz they soot enuff to read a soot's blog... whahahahahha


BYE

Nelvin Ng
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When I Look Up the Stage, I See the REAL HER...
She is Godly, Lovely, Silly...

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