Sunday, December 17, 2006
-christian politics-
oh...
wat do i mean by that?
well...
u may find out more after reading my mind...
ho ho ho...
i'm heading towards the 8th HOF christmas events in church...
time sure does fly...
it was RETRO when i first started...
then was aloha...
after that was yellow festival...
wat was 2002?
2003 i miss the christmas 2043...
then 2004 we had K K K...
then last year was retro 2...
this year is Blue...
hmm...
cant recall wat is 2002...
haha...
i know that christmas 2043 was my sad one as i was enlisted the next day...
LOL...
7years gone by...
things changes...
ppl come and go...
ppl go and come...
frens change...
status change...
attitude change...
charactor change...
looks change...
style change...
spiritual change...
maturity change...
grow older...
look older...
think older...
behave older...
run slower...
roll faster...
getting lost?
haha...
as i was coming home on the bus juz now from town...
thoughts came to my mind...
recalling many past...
experiences...
frens made...
frens disown...
group changes...
frens gone...
backslided...
turn away...
grow older...
status change...
and u feel like punching them...
haha...
ok...
wat i wanted to say is...
now...
there is 2 different generation of politics i talking abt la...
it's wat i feel, felt and experience...
so PEOPLE...
dont read and get confuse...
you dont understand wat i toking abt de...
coz u not that clever...
got it?
so dont mis-interpret...
and tok behind my back...
coz if i found out...
you'r SCREWED...
*warning...*
*dont read if you are stupid*
haha...
=P
i think i kinda long winded, and yet not straight to the point...
haha...
if i say, i end this post here and continue later...
i'll be stoned...
LOL...
lalala...
ok...
*my experience in church*
i felt younger generation is spoiled...
if only i m their parents...
so i can smack them with a cane...
LOL...
if not, i onli can pray that they fall down on their knees...
HAHA...
i m like getting no where...
those thoughts when i had, cant recall when i want to post...
lol...
ok...
sometimes i have been wondering...
wat if, i havent been to HOF that year 1999...
wat IF?
would i be what i m now?
would i hav been somewhere else?
wat's my direction if i walk the another way?
hav i fulfill my max potential in life?
have i been somewhere else...
rather than still being in singapore?
the question is wat if?
i know these kind of thoughts are from the devil...
it's making me confuse like any of u are experiencing it...
i looking back on my life...
and the lifes' i see upon these young kids in church...
those 15 16 17 18 kids...
i look and reflect on my old self...
parties getting more and more wild and uncontrolable these days...
underage parties are legal...
and more and more punks on the road...
AIDS, HIV are increasing every year...
with all the warnings given on WORLD NEWS...
yet such parties are still on the increase...
Humans are getting boldder and not scare...
why?
isnt parents these days cant control their kids the way my time is?
sleeping over at fren's hse, gf's hse, bf's hse and watever frens' hse...
are increasing common these days...
hEY...
u wanna be a dad or a mom at age of 18?
learn to protect urself is a long term commitment and will save ur regrets in future...
dont tell me, if u never try, how u know...
stop giving urself excuses to try...
why not, TRY to save it for the best of the night?
that will be even harder...
i always thought highly of myself...
but sometimes, it's always hav to learn the hard way...
i learnt many hard ways thruout these years of life...
i wanna thank God, that i had a strict parents when i was young...
duo i learn many bad stuff...
but these bad stuff helps me to grow more independence than any other ppl is...
i learn not to depend on man...
but my own ability...
if i can, i can...
but as i go church...
i learnt that my ability is limited...
and bible teaches me to depend on God's power...
that help me to be stronger...
u think i go thru Army easy?
NO!
the training is tough...
the mental training is worst...
who can i ask for help in the middle of the juggle?
ants? snakes? or flys?
my frens with me, same as me...
almost drop dead tire in the juggle...
even the regulars, officers, are also tired...
u think they help u?
they scold u, more like it...
during tough training...
i only can depend on GOD to pull me thru...
every single step is tough...
but i thank god, i know him...
i'm still human, i fail at times...
fail damn badly when grave mistake was made...
it's always down to attitude...
i hav a strong mind...
i fight to win...
but the fight must be a fight i m confident to win...
not any fight i can win...
i lost many fights too...
i lost my mind to my heart...
i lost my left to my right...
i lost my up to my down...
many things...
my mind is keep on running...
running away...
running forward...
running...
like during today soccer match...
i had revenge...
WHAHHAHAHAHAH...
but it's not going to end there...
it will be on going thing...
i know it's not right...
but i still do it...
reason...
i cant help it...
it's not easy to think ppl back stabbing u, and u going to let it go...
u will take revenge, even it's a tiny push...
whoever do bad to me, i return them...
whoever do good to me, i return them...
so...
it's in the mind...
u juz cant control it...
i learn to be forgiving...
but it's not easy...
i may smile to u, but it could be fake...
i may fake smile to u, but it's real?
how do u define it?
who can define who is real or who is fake?
God will jugde...
but not man's job...
so why the hell, man like to jugde?
so wat if he like her, and there is 8yrs gap?
7yrs?
or 6yrs?
if is God's will, it's God's will...
right?
it's not like a big who har lydat...
but wat i cant stand is ppl going into BGR so easily...
either the girls' eye got stamp, or the boy's lips is too sweet...
HAHAHHAHhah...
for me, i cant tok well...
i nv like toking mushy stuff...
for now...
duo KOREA show learnt alot from it...
but PLS...
BE ORIGINAL!
hav ur own personality...
like friday night, while waiting for our movie to show...
got this guy dressed up like some jap punk...
wat the hell lo...
look so ShIT in singapore...
if he dressed tat in japan, everyone is lydat...
but in SINGAPORE?
u look like weirdo...
if there is 90s ah beng left...
u will get a hell beaten up...
HAHAHAH...
and these days...
small punks tok louder and louder and their mouth stinks...
smoke smoke smoke...
pls DIE of LUNG cancer!
those UNDERAGE smOKERS!!! these words are for u...
and GOVERNMENT!
PLEASE INCREASE THE each packet of cigg to $20 bucks!
make them BROKE!
WHAHAHhahahhah...
oh ya...
i nearly punch this arse guy who was walking towards me...
he smoking la, then wtf he blow the smoke out as he walk...
damn shit lo...
thk God, i was still in good mood mode...
if that day i m a pissed off guy...
that GUy is going to live in a living hell in the middle of ORCHARD ROAD!
haha...
i think i blog alot...
and still no link to wat i had in mind...
ok i shall continue when the thoughts came back...
-night-
-kinda confuse now too-
-when i look up the stage, i see the REAL HER-
Nelvin Blogged @ 12:38 AM
