Saturday, December 22, 2007
-Christmas Banquet-
Was a alright day for me, manage to get many presents for those people who remember me and that, i got to know so many secrets out of sudden!!! hahaha...
Nelvin, u are such an arse! knowing too much not good le! hahaha, i dont care!
ok, today word of God had ministered my life once again... and i right now, know what i hav to do, and what i need to do... even the drama had taught me so much that, i didnt hav found out myself! i was so touched!
Individual - me...
Soul - the only thing will be with me...
Family & Frens - will only last till the grave...
Status and Possession - something i purse materialism...
Body - things that is flesh...
is like having 4 wifes of different characteristic... which i hav to chose only 1 of it, which will help me, go with me, till the end! in pursing the right cause of life... and i believe SOUL is in me, and with me!
Knowing that, i havent lay down my past, yet i have to, yet it's my responsibility to know that, i need to help, it was simply so confusing! haha... but all i can depend now is that God can give me direction, in doing all things! becoz my mind is always giving me different situation to handle, different plans and ways to do it... one moment this, next is this, anger comes, anger goes, joy came, joy goes... and wats more...
Even when giving ur best to all, yet at the end, u might just get backstabbed... so whether it's worth it or not is one things, fulfilling what u need to do is another... so very luan right, i also dunno what i trying to say or type now~! lol...
As i always share, LOVE is one thing, ADMIRE is another thing, Vision is another too! I SEE, I THINK, I FEEL... sometimes, when u cant see things, u can feel it's presences... sometimes, when u think, u could see... and sometimes when u feel, u think! all these 3 element is just such a impressive ways...
God truelly know how to handle us man... As i told someone or many ones recently that, a broken relationship makes me purse God more... and i finally understand why i did said that...
back in 2001, i had a transformation in which that, God send someone to called me when i was about to leave CHURCH... but becoz of that someone who called, he is a guy by the way, so dont think else where... becos of his call, i feel this concerns, his words is like God speaking to me thru him... telling me, that GOD LOVES ME, and all these trials he gave me is to make me stronger for him!
but after 6yrs, this trial onces again taught me another things, which is more deeper, higher, and stronger impact on me... that will even lead me to be STRONGER and even More stronger than before, and ensuring me that, if i do fore his WAYS, there is plenty of blessing awaits in blessing the people around me, and me!
so now, i just hav to weight the values of all things in this world, that whether will it lead me away from HIM not... and i just want to be stronger thru these coming years...
and for -when i look up the stage, i still see the real her-, maybe next year, i will let u know my decision on whether shld i even purse u anot! haha... even if i m, and i not doing anything, do remember that, i just need time to get back my self! hahahah... and at the same time, u do ur prayers, and i do mine...
God... help me lord... thanks...
MErry Christmas people!
ciao...
Nelvin Blogged @ 3:05 AM
