Saturday, January 05, 2008
-another weird moment-
m i a fool? a bloodie fool? why didnt i go and do the things in mind? y m i escaping from making the moves... WHY? i dunno... m i a fool? YESH I AM! I AM A BLOODIE FOOL! lol...
another chance, another day, another moment gone by... what will it become if, i did something else? what will happen? a chance? a second chance? or another chance? i do not know...
i ran, i ran after the rain, i ran and ran and ran out of breathe... i want to erases memories, i want to let all things out, i want to clear my mind, fight the mind, and restores my mind...
i m stunned... i m silences... i just stood there... looking... avoiding... acting blur... AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GOD! wat are you speaking? what do u want me to do and learn? WHAT?
i bought my JUMONG today... and i felt nothing... not so excited nor not too sad... hahahaha... oh crap... my sales sux... damn slow... how to hit 30k? i do not know... i want my MAZDA 2 or LANCER... First hand or second hand? i dont care... i just want my baby CAR!!! so i can use it to do something for myself! hahahaha...
i sux... i know... i m a fool... i know... i m just a mask... in everywhere... where is nelvin now? i do not know... i m just somebody out there... living in his own world of ambitions...
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ isnt important...
FAME is nothing...
Achievement isnt wat i want...
i just want to be happy... to do things i like, to make ppl happy... thats wat i want... but it's not easy... can say, but hard to do...
AH!!!
LORD, teach me wat i can do... to do things that is ur WILL...
m i to go for it? or not... i m scare... i dont want to hurt anyone, or be hurt... if waiting is your WILL... i will... coz i dont want to be foolish again... i want to be wise... a WiSE MAN... not to sing, or dance, but a wise man with wisdom...
LOVE is greatest of all...
GOD LOVES, I LOVE... hahahhaa... :)
-WHEN I LOOK UP THE STAGE, I SEE THE REAL HER- and i got scare... HAHA...
Nelvin Blogged @ 8:29 PM
