-the moment that i cant slp-
i dunno whats wrong now, i just cant fall aslp... things are simply just running in my mind, and stiring my emotion again... i dunno what's wrong, i just cant slp!
when ever i try to close my eyes, images appears, and thoughts just run through my mind, speaking different languages that i do not understand...
pictures of different charactors, factors and places appears... and it just goes on and on and on... oh my... wats wrong with me?
fears began to flow in... fears of losing, fears of being disappointed again, fears of fears...
where is everyone, someone, who i can depend on?
GOD! where r u?
have my ears shut its hearing? or did my eyes shuts the sight...
listening to casting crown new songs, east to west...
i want to make things right... show me the way...
i dont want to make mistake again, i dont want to depend on my own again... all things right now in my life, i want u (my lord) to open... when things that are open by you, let no man shuts it! and no man can say NO to it! when u open, u OPEN!
my new insurance agent called, and ask how i m... i'm so touched... lol... even outsider cares... wats more insider... lol...
oh well, i dont realli know why m i typing this post, since i cant slp... lol... it's back to square one le this post, like never post lydat... lol...
every time i see your picture, i see the real you... your inner world, of creation... a world that speaks only ur language, a world that allows someone one day to go in and explore... i would want to be the one... to explore ur world... your inner world... and build my base in ur world... u hav so much for us to explore, and to know u better, to know u more, to create a brand new world, with hopes and faith... with loyally and love...
one day, and the day will come...
-when i always look up the stage, i see the real you-
rolling down the world full of trials...
Nelvin Blogged @ 12:11 AM
