Wednesday, January 23, 2008
-sometimes, i felt i want to be a bad guy-
but how? i'm naturally kind hearted! hahahaha
realli... things that i want to do, always cannot do, why? COZ GOD DOESNT ALLOW ME TO DO!!! he always want me to learn the other way! and not the way i want it to be! sob! thats how i hav to store my anger of all things into one big place called, my stomach! storing all the anger into it, like eating all the food and dump it in! and hope that it will come out as shit! and washes away! hahahaha...
but till then, it's so hard, so hard, so hard!!! not to think of the pain, the hurts, the anger, the thoughts of all negative!!! damn!!! how i wish there is a punching bag, for me to beat! to punch, to BOX!!!
why? why do i hav to be the one, who needs to forgive others? why? why is it me! i realli realli realli hate those arseholes man!!! and i just hope they will get kicked at the butt by others!!! coz i wasnt able to do it myself... if i can do, I WILL!!!
really... i just want to be a bad guy for once!!! hahaha
but how? GOD says... NELVIN! love ur enemys!!! sigh!
i feel like saying... GOD! can i kick them once, then love them later?
GOD sure reply this... NO... sighz...
these people, will one day be dealed with... GOD PROMISED! and they will suffer 10 times worst then how they treat me? i hope! hahaha...
eh, readers, i not teaching u bad hor, dont anyhow read, then go tell pastors! haha... later i got coffee session, then i sure find who sabo me! lol...
ah!!! i just want to venger my thoughts in here... till then... ciao...
-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-
(sian, my plan for friday is closed by GOD! so sad! so cannot process my plan a... argh... well, i guess GOD want me to wait a little longer... for a chance... yeah! ok then, will simply continue to steal a glance on u... lol)
Nelvin Blogged @ 11:26 PM
