-when i see her on stage, i still see the real her-
oh man...
nelvin! wake up ur idea...
wat can u do even if u see her...
nothing...
you are suppose to focus on ur studies, and work!
wat else man...
man!
lol...
anyway, just wanna say is...
i still cant take my eyes off u...
HAAHHAHAHAHHAHHA
-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-
(Jiayou!)
Nelvin Blogged @ 6:04 AM
-interesting-
Sometimes, in our relentless efforts
to find the
person we love we fail to recognize
and
appreciate the people who love us. We
miss out on
so many beautiful things simply
because we allow
ourselves to be enslaved by our own
selfish
concerns. Go for the man of deeds and
not for the
man of words for you will find
rewarding
happiness not with the man you love
but the man
who loves you more. The best lovers
are those
capable of loving from a distance far
enough to
allow the person to grow, but never
too far to
feel the love deep within your being.
To let go of someone doesn't mean you
have to
stop loving. It only means that you
allow that
person to find his own happiness
without
expecting him/her to come back.
Letting go is not
just setting the other person free,
but it is
also setting yourself free from all
bitterness,
hatred and anger that you keep in your
heart. Do
not let the bitterness rare away your
strength
and weaken your faith and never allow
pain to
dishearten you, but rather let
yourself grow with
wisdom in bearing it. You may find
peace in just
loving someone from a distance not
expecting
anything in return. But be careful for
this can
sustain life but can never give enough
room for
us to grow. We can all survive with
just
beautiful memories of the past but
real peace and
happiness come only with open
acceptance of what
reality is today. There comes a time
in our lives
when we chance upon someone so nice
and beautiful
and we just find ourselves getting so
intensely
attracted to that person. This feeling
soon
becomes a part of our everyday lives
and
eventually consumes our thoughts and
actions. The
sad part of it is when we begin to
realize that
this person feels nothing more for us
than just a
friendship, we start our desperate
attempt to get
noticed and be closer but in the end
our efforts
are still unrewarded and we end up
being sorry
for ourselves. You don't have to
forget someone
you love. What you need to learn is
how to accept
the verdict of reality without being
bitter or
sorry for yourself.
Believe me, you would be better off
giving that
dedication and love to someone more
deserving.
Don't let your heart run your life, be
sensible
and let your mind speak for itself.
Listen not
only to your feelings but to reason as
well.
Always remember that if you lose
someone today,
it means that someone better is coming
tomorrow.
If you lose love that doesn't mean
that you
failed in love. Cry if you have to,
but make it
sure that the tears wash away the hurt
and the
bitterness that the past has left with
you. Let
go of yesterday and love will find its
way back
to you. And when it does, pray that it
may be the
love that will stay and last a
lifetime.
There are two ways to live your life.
One is as
though nothing is a miracle. The other
is though
everything is a miracle.
Albert Einstein.
Nelvin Blogged @ 7:38 AM
-looking for a holiday break-
before even meeting alan for dinner just now, i was so eager to find out about japan and history of japan at national library... and the desirer of going is so strong, and will power... and then as we were toking abt stuff... alan suggusted we go japan... i was like... COOL... Lets go! hahahahaha... power sia... saving saving saving...$5k for a fun, enjoyable, relax... hot spring... snows... japanese babes! wooooooooooooooo... fashion... food... wah WAH WAH!!! hahaha...
go go go!
ok...
i need holiday, i need holiday... i want go country side... i need green... sea... breeze... food... sun... wah lao... i NEED A BREAK LA... hahahaha... for... a month! keke...
but how to go on off for a month? hmm... must plan nice nice... then my big boss... wont be angry... keke...
goals for the year... do well in my studies... and find my soulmate! keke...
ok la... i m so tired liao... nites...
-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-
(i dunno how long more i can stare at the stage, it seems fading away...)
Nelvin Blogged @ 1:01 AM
-7 days of hell-
through out the days of my life, i have suffered 7 days of living hell before... the feelings is not good, it's unbearable, it's farked up, it's just like, i feel like dying off... jump off a bridge or simply just die... that was the kind of impulse action, feelings that goes into me, the hate, the anger, the frustration, the fear, the shittyness... it's just damn PISSED OFF...
all these i understand... and how i overcome it, wasnt easy at all... imagine, when u awake, u cry, when u slp u cry, when u walk on the street, u cry... u bath, u shit, u brush teeth, u cry n cry n cry... and nobody is there to comfort u... how shit is it right? i been thru that moment... the moment of helplessness... the moment that nobody is there to understand... nobody is there to shine the light on my path... nobody... darkness... emptiness... loneliness... ohhhhh... how shitty... all these i understand, coz i been thru that phrase of life... and the devil always haunt me back with such memories, such fears, such anger, such tears... ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... driving alone is scary... coz tears will just flow down when dark memories occurs...
oh Lord, oh Lord... what have i done to deserve this?
sometimes, it just take wisdon to understand what God had inplace in ur life... God's wisdon comes thru word of God... only when u read, u hear, u practise his words and works... u will shine...
man fail, i fail, everyone fails... no one is prefect, but in the eyes of the lord... he loves us so much... only i wish i can do that to him too... but i know i cant, coz i m not prefect... but what i can do is to do my best in serving him with the rest of my lifes...
GOD... Be with me, help me, mold me, lift me, comfort me, and let ur light shine thru me...
OVERCOME! and be a warrior for HIM!
-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-
(i miss the stage, i need to open my eyes again)
Nelvin Blogged @ 11:53 PM
-I HATE SINGAPORE ROAD-
F man... i got 12pts - from my license! thanks to the stupid camera! anyhow anyhow say i pass by red light! DAMN IT!!! stupid lo, anyhow fine me $200... kns... i really damn pissed off by it lo... TMD TMD TMD!!!
ARGH!!!, my EXAM STRESS so stress liao, now come with such shit... damn it... i cannot take it man... i want to kick someone butts!!! dont mess with me! damn it damn it damn it... so piss off... i dunno how many times it will happen lo... sian man...
i felt so like shit now... anyhow hit a summon for nothing... $200 le... there goes my painting of car... argh!!! damn it!!!
sian...
-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-
(sometimes i wonder... is it worth to fight for the best? but in the end, it's worth)
Nelvin Blogged @ 1:06 AM
-NTU & My MACDONALD BREAKFAST-
the most wonderful thing GOD had given me today is HOTCAKES Breakfast today!!! it's in the morning and GOD provided such a wonderful creation! to fill my empty stomach! hahahaha! it's been long time i ate that... so SHIOK!!!
oh well... sales was average today... coz got mail in la... so not so bad... and then hor, AJC talk haha... dunno will get sales not, i didnt even sms them... HAHA... oh well, doesnt matter, tml then i call them lo...
class was horrible lo... end so late, i already start to stone liao lo... yet drag and drag until after 10pm... then come back still hav to clean my car... coz raining lo... make it look like shit... so clean abit lo... haiz...
another drive home... tots comes in again... hehe... i was wondering... who lives near me? hmm... working... hmm... got 3 ideal key points... hmm... oh well... no idea... hahahahaha...
will he send that special one soon? i wonder...
-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-
(an task not too hard to achieve, just takes effort to start it off)
Nelvin Blogged @ 11:54 PM
-eventful saturday-
say it dumb, say it bored, i find singapore a great place...
lol... do alot things today... unexpectedly... keke... go cut hair, guess who i saw at the same saloon? my AUNT... oh my... she went to dye her hair la... so i got no choice but to sit beside her when i cuting my hair la... since my hairstylist is my another aunt... hahaha... ok, then suppose to go home one, then a call came...
so i went down to expo to see the natas fair with ah lun... hehe, he paid the entry fee la, and we took many many information of JAPAN, KOREA, TAIWAN & HONGKONG!... out of 4, 3 i go before liao... is the JAPAN that i more interested la, even i dont mind going KOREA too... keke... we also take free coke light to drink, so our $3 each is worth it...
then we go to the watson fair, nothing one, then we go popular fair, and i go find my colleague... wah lao, pathetic placing... cant even see them one lo... no wonder business not that good... our rival even best lo, stand there 10mins no one come n serve me... wat a service... hahaha... lousy man...
then we went CHANGI T3 to eat popeye loh... adventurous hor... hehe... wah lao, air steward got belly one lo... SQ drop standard lo... lydat i wonder why i cant go in... then we had popeye... wah T3 not really open up yet, so many things undone...
ok, then we went down to suntec career fair... another cheapo thing i do is to collect feebies... hahaha... then i saw my consultan at sma booth... she was talking to someone, then i wave... hahaha disturb... then she smile, i just walk away... evil... hahaha...
oh... then daniel stupid one la, work at jobstreet then go st701 and get feebies... go rival place lo... hahaha... i quite lame this post... ok, then he work till 8+ so the rest of us go find movie watch but got nothing, end up walking around lo...
suppose to eat sushi teh coz got voucher but then must wait 30mins, we dont want... then i eat korea food at the foodcourt lo... not so bad la, just that quite ex onli for a foodcourt food... oh well...
as we are to go home, we saw, GRET... oh my... lol... ok then, so we on our way home... as usual, i will bitch about other cars drivers... bunch of idiots drivers out there, dunno how to speed, want to speed, dunno how to cut lane, want to cut... dunno how to be safe driver, then DONT DRIVE!!!... stop Horning other drivers when u speed! piss off! hahaha...
oh ok, as i got home, my laptop go heiwired... ok then saw my msn got message, she sent me a link... i almost open... but thank God for wisdom and didnt save the file... it turn out to be virus lo... haha... and then i go ask her... she reply, then i tell her wat to do... she sounded piss off... haha, and say NIGHT THEN!
hhahaa... i was trying to be nice... oh well... heck... lol...
ok, i going to bed before waking up at 630... argh...
-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-
(i almost soon going to forget ur looks, if i stop glancing u from far... i shld walk up to u and give a full scan and walk away)
LOL...
good nites ppl... GOD BLESS!
Nelvin Blogged @ 12:07 AM
