-7 days of hell-
through out the days of my life, i have suffered 7 days of living hell before... the feelings is not good, it's unbearable, it's farked up, it's just like, i feel like dying off... jump off a bridge or simply just die... that was the kind of impulse action, feelings that goes into me, the hate, the anger, the frustration, the fear, the shittyness... it's just damn PISSED OFF...
all these i understand... and how i overcome it, wasnt easy at all... imagine, when u awake, u cry, when u slp u cry, when u walk on the street, u cry... u bath, u shit, u brush teeth, u cry n cry n cry... and nobody is there to comfort u... how shit is it right? i been thru that moment... the moment of helplessness... the moment that nobody is there to understand... nobody is there to shine the light on my path... nobody... darkness... emptiness... loneliness... ohhhhh... how shitty... all these i understand, coz i been thru that phrase of life... and the devil always haunt me back with such memories, such fears, such anger, such tears... ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... driving alone is scary... coz tears will just flow down when dark memories occurs...
oh Lord, oh Lord... what have i done to deserve this?
sometimes, it just take wisdon to understand what God had inplace in ur life... God's wisdon comes thru word of God... only when u read, u hear, u practise his words and works... u will shine...
man fail, i fail, everyone fails... no one is prefect, but in the eyes of the lord... he loves us so much... only i wish i can do that to him too... but i know i cant, coz i m not prefect... but what i can do is to do my best in serving him with the rest of my lifes...
GOD... Be with me, help me, mold me, lift me, comfort me, and let ur light shine thru me...
OVERCOME! and be a warrior for HIM!
-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-
(i miss the stage, i need to open my eyes again)
Nelvin Blogged @ 11:53 PM
