-a missing link-
GOD GOD GOD!!!
can you tell me what should i do?
to do or not to do?
i am really in a mess in everything right now...
studies flop!
work flop!
and my attitude flop!
oh man... where is mr nice nelvin went to?
MISSING la.!!!
hahahahhaah...
oh man...
-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-
(when i saw you, i felt like a fool... coz i have been acting not myself... haizzzz)
Nelvin Blogged @ 11:38 PM
-ANGRY,PISS OFF, HUMPF-
it's been so long that i m so pissed off, angry and wanting to flare up! damn pissed off with what my brother's word he uses... damn angry la, never kanna beat by me, he began to use words without using his small brain! damn angry!!!
what's the point of treating him nice, protect him and occasionly drive him around... for all his brain also never use! damn it...
never uses names of others to force something to me, coz i know it will never happen that i can be force to do things that it can never happen! damn angry...
humpf... i hate it when he pass on message unclear, uncorrect, and not detail! or he adds in extra words etc... wtf lo...
damn...
ok, i need to cool down...
anyway i m leaving for a week to reservist, so people who interested in finding me(if any) just know that i m not ard... hahaha... ok... i m depressed... work sux, study sux and i sux...
ok...
end...
-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-
(can anyone tell me, where is she?)
Nelvin Blogged @ 9:50 PM
-i cherish the old rugged cross-
man... HOWS LIFE READERS? keke...
i am in deep shit now, work not hitting sales targets, and for studies, not doing well at all... and worst of all, my nightmares will come and haunt me real soon!!!
thank God, for sending preachers like pastor dag, coz he hav bring across what is the vision i hav when i was 17-18 that time... the very reason why i have went ahead to go CEBU even there is danger... the passion, the heart for mission...
and what m i doing now? searching for wat is best for me? my own selfishness... oh man... forgive me lord...
i gain some, i lose some... what i want in life is what GOD has best for me! lol... i m surprised that i still able to keep contact with 2 frens i made in cebu!!! thats amazing ok! 7yrs of frenship! woooooooooo... and also some china frens whom i made in school... imagine is about 7-9years now... man...
these are frens of a differences... u dont see them, you dont talk to them... but when u need them, they will HELP you or be ur listening ear... kinda amaze me...
i still cherish my frens ard me... not all of them, but some of them... i may be harsh at words sometimes, but please understand that, i m just protecting myself from being used! hahahaha...
back from indonesia, cool visit alot ppl whom i dont even know, learnt about some history... and etc... food wasnt up to expectation but thanks to those who bring us around... thanks...
work sux... study sux... life goes on... hahahhahaa...
slowly slowly, i m overcoming my nightmares... and soon i will be restore to my places! yeah!!!
GOD! BE WITH ME!
-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-
(IDMYD)
Nelvin Blogged @ 11:26 PM
