-Vision and not sight-
pastor lim shared, that we shld live by vision, and not by sight, as what God want us to be... being by faith, and not by seeing... i hav just counting my days in Evangel since 1999 july... when i first came... so many history, so many frens come and goes, and so many mistake happened and moved on... frens gain frens lost... oh well, thats life i suppose... good r/s bad r/s poor ending, lost of things that cant turn back in time... oh...
man... pastor marion in 11am shared, that forgive, and you'r forgiven... prayer, prayers, and we shld pray, we have to pray, no matter who we are... in the day, the noon or the evening... prayers will lead us, to what God want us to be, and guide us where we shld head to...
wisdom, to be wise, to learn, to gain and loss things... is what we are in this world for... to do his will, to do our desirers, to do the wrong, the right, the everything that, lies and wrongs are... who are we to blame? nobody... everyone is not perfect... so you only can do is, to repent, to seek forgiveness, to seek strenght and to move on with it!
who doesnt make mistake? who doesnt fall into sins? who doesnt?
oh well, during altar call, suddenly so many names came into my mind, so many lost souls that i hav lost, so many chances given to me, so many opportunity! did i make use of each chances to gain a soul? NO! i wasnt a good follow-up. i didnt do the right thing at the right time... i always base on feelings, but feelings is just mere thoughts! it is not always the right choices! but human tend to fail coz of it! HOW?
learn from it! i lost many frens to the world, they were once in church serving GOD... but in split seconds... they return to the world! to the WORLD! man! how have i not rebuke them when they needed to be! Y? and why did i judge them? and why did i ever say not the right thing at the right time? man...
i made frens in cebu, and on occassion to heard some of them left church too, it sadden me... and to some of my army frens, or school frens... they are SHOCKED that i still in the same church! and one of them ever say this to me, nelvin, i didnt expect u are so faithful to ur church! coz many of his frens, change church or left church... i m surprised when he said that to me... coz when looking back... i thank God, that i have spiritual leaders/frens whom i respected and seek advise from, are always there when i needed them... a few of them are now cell leaders, happily married and have 1 to 3 darlings, whom i dote! hehe...
it's not saying that i m different, just that, i thank god for these people whom i met when i was 16-18, when i make frens with them, know them better, visit their new-wed homes, and visit them during CNY... i m glad to know them... it's just such a blessing... and i m trying to do that to the younger generation! and i m glad i can sometimes be abit of blessing to them!
but it's not enuff, there is much work to be done, i just hope one day, those ppl whom grow up with me in the olden days, will come back to know GOD... coz at times when i visit wakes, it reminds me that life is short, and we need to cherish them...
God, use me, and make me a blessing to others! not only to my family... but to everyone! and use me to lead ppl to you... thank you!
-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-
(you'r still the most adorable one)
Nelvin Blogged @ 11:14 PM
