-call me selfish, but think again-
before you make any comment, think again... not everything is plainly happens this way or that... look at the bigger picture first... (i will not blame you, but just to let you know... even he also dont know what i am facing, so, for those who dont know, i wont blame you people... just letting you know that, i am just trying to save any much as possible and not be so generous for unnecessary stuff)
for things i done for the company, and they want to think of the company and not for who had put in effort for this and not allow to keep the market they build, what for i stay put on, and give to others what i have created? is not that i selfish dont want to give them the contacts i have, is that, if i give away the contacts... they gain, and i loss? and they hav the credits and money, and i just have to stand there seeing them growing in profits and fame, and i left there hanging, when i am the one created the market? is it fair? no!, so what for i do and give my best? if they are not going to be fair to me, why should i care about the company? what bigger picture? why shld i even bother abt it? when i am the one doing the work, and not getting anything in returns?
i am not saint... i need returns for the effort i put in, if not, where is the motivation for me to strive my 200%??? i do not lose to anyone in the company in sales, or capability at all! i m not saying i m the best, but i am someone who trys new stuff and work towards it... if i m not being rewarded for the extra efforts, what for m i investing so much of my time and strenght on things that is always taking away my other valuable things in life?
i shld just go and try to get some monday to friday job la... and pay abt the same... that shld be fine enuff... i shall be contented for simple things... and not for things that is unnecessary tough...
i can be born a fighter, and be a fighter, but being a fighter needs alot of motivation, and now my motivation for this company has faded... i no longer see myself a picture further in this company... even thou i gain lots of knowledge in the product that i am selling, such as the infomation of diff magazines, but now, i guess i hav to explore myself to what i like most... which is the f&b industry or some other things that i am motivated to do...
well...
thats life i guess...
-when i look up the stage, i see the real her-
(you'r beautiful, you are... a glance at you makes my day)
Nelvin Blogged @ 1:41 AM
