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each time when u close ur eyes, do u often remember stuff that u shldnt be remembering? things that could effect u from moving forward to achieve certain things in life? and things that can haunt u for life too... be it good or bad memories, these happen to be part of growing up. it takes time to cross ur path and it takes time to be erase from ur path too... sometimes u may have let it go, however it just happen that u walk pass certain place or environment or moments of dates and time that things just came back to ur mind and that it helps to recall certain memories of life... do u ever regret saying words or did somethings bad against someone? i cant say never, but i cant say i m wrong too. its just moments that i felt that its nasty to do it yet sometimes i felt that i shld hav do something worst yet i cant do it as i felt its kinda wrong but yet i m still quite pissed off or hurted by that moment that i shld do it... this kind of moments i believe everyone will come across with it and it will depend how u react on the first moment of thiught from wihin urself and things that u might hav done could haunt u for the rest of ur life. it also could be that if u dont do it, u cant make the other person to hate u for life in order for the other person to move on with life or u want to just end things up that u cant dont see one another again or cross path again or there is so many wat if or so that things just happeb this way. if both shares a diff grp of frens then its best that both whin to each grp of fren n get support becoz this grp of frens will remain faithful or u just be a loner for life. it depends how deep u grow up with ur frens or how u survive in this world with or without frens. sometimes a person just can give it all up for something or someone yet some cant. oh well, i seriously dunno what the heck m i writing or i just been thinking too much during reservist. even when i m outfield chionging up mountains hills or building i m consistantly thinking n reflecting who had cross my path n who hav remain n who hav left n who hav sudden fall out on me without a valid reason. n how some mates in army could tell me out of the blue that they first time see me smile over 8yrs in camp? do i show i m freaking black in my 2yrs in camp? i wonder... hahaha
i miss my tv coz no tv for 2 weeks n freaking office ppl is an arse thinking i csn solve things when i m out in field. if they cant help me when i m inside, i shall not bother anyhing until i come back. if they treat me like shit, i shall treat them like shit too. i shld be treated better since i serve them for 4yrs already!!!
even in church, i will help if they ask me, but if they draw a line against me, dont even bother to ask me for help, i wont! even if u r kinda of related to me or not, hello? never draw a line against me. if i ask, u dont give and u say bird words on me, i dont care u r who, i will give u bird action! nb... f u u understand!
book out tml! hope to be release at least before 8pm so can go home n chiong to chalet! lol
okay dunno what to write liao.
p.s (sis, if u r reading, kinda take note of this post)
Nelvin Blogged @ 1:44 AM
